This past month I'm getting comments from everyone that comes in contact with me that I'm going to end up dead or in jail. But why would it happen now at age 30? I don't live that lifestyle, never been in serious legal trouble.
I'm an decent citizen. I don't use drugs or hang out late. I do mature, spiritually uplifting activities frequently.
I'm becoming "violent" (I hate that word) again, and i can't get myself out of this cycle. I haven't cried or had this much rage in years. and I'm getting really sloppy with my risky behaviors. I actually feel fine though.
Just can't believe I'm still not living up to my potential, and just into some bullshyt. Been feeling stuck for past two months. My social life sucks, I might have hurt or threatened 80 percent of my friends and family recently. Lost another job and got suspended from school. I don't know, starting to work with a pastor, therapist, doctor, and some friends soon. But I'm supposed to be able to get myself out of this ultimately. I'll prolly just push them all away.
I'm an decent citizen. I don't use drugs or hang out late. I do mature, spiritually uplifting activities frequently.
I'm becoming "violent" (I hate that word) again, and i can't get myself out of this cycle. I haven't cried or had this much rage in years. and I'm getting really sloppy with my risky behaviors. I actually feel fine though.
Just can't believe I'm still not living up to my potential, and just into some bullshyt. Been feeling stuck for past two months. My social life sucks, I might have hurt or threatened 80 percent of my friends and family recently. Lost another job and got suspended from school. I don't know, starting to work with a pastor, therapist, doctor, and some friends soon. But I'm supposed to be able to get myself out of this ultimately. I'll prolly just push them all away.
