self-harm

Do you believe that one who partakes in the act hoping to achieve atonement is deeply religious/spiritual or simply a crazed masochist with deluded ideology?

I'm a sobbing mess brehs, I cry a lot but thinking about this is making me hysterical.. Thankfully I'm not suicidal now, but a few years ago I was, for a lotta reasons that are for another thread. Being a teenager clouded my better judgement, however, my Grandmother is a very religious, sweet...