
In not to familiar wit u bro, I just know u go thru a lot of problem.
But my main thing I see that's wrong wit u blaming everybody else for your problems, a lot of us didn't have a great father in our life. Sometimes u got to take life how it comes at U and make the best of it.
Your cousin who u wish u had life had a good life from the start, but she still made the the right choices and it's paying off.
If of all why do u think it's ok to quit every job? Be a man and stick wit something for once in your life, sometimes u have to start from the bottom, how will survive without income, your mother can support u, and your pops can't either.
It's a lot of things I wish I was taught by my pops, but he wasn't there, but hey, I learned it regardless, from women, driving, have a great work ethic and no give up.
U a young grown, who is still talking bout he mentally weak, change that if its true, suck your pride up and make a change son
And to answer your question I did have some resentment for my pops until he got off drugs and got his life together, once he showed me he was serious I forgave him and put all that shyt in the pass, he passed a couple years and when I think I only think of the great moments that we had in life, put that shyt behind u and build wit him before its to late