9/14/2012
I thought i was gonna have a mid life crisis until i realize i had one years ago
so now what? I have been lazy for the past year man, so many things i didnt do and now its too late. Gonna live with that ether burning inside until i handle my business. Still i feel like a failure at the moment, maybe cuz i am. I put myself there so now i gotta get myself out. 
bout my recent loses and that held me back from trying something new.
im fukking up cuz im letting myself do it.
Normally i would have some type of direction where to go but as of right now im lost and i got no one to blame but myself.
my life right now is in the bushes
I thought i was gonna have a mid life crisis until i realize i had one years ago
so now what? I have been lazy for the past year man, so many things i didnt do and now its too late. Gonna live with that ether burning inside until i handle my business. Still i feel like a failure at the moment, maybe cuz i am. I put myself there so now i gotta get myself out. bout my recent loses and that held me back from trying something new. im fukking up cuz im letting myself do it.Normally i would have some type of direction where to go but as of right now im lost and i got no one to blame but myself.
my life right now is in the bushes
