i think the problem with this discussion is you're relating the belief in God to an idea of christian origin. you're selling yourself short by referring to dogma and the bible to some how explain the existence of God or the validity behind people believing. it's bigger than that and, in reality, you know it is. anything you do in life works out that way. it becomes personalized. also, to say that clinging to spirituality (which you should recognize that the angle i've always refer to, not religious institutions or traditions) some how makes you "simple" is not logical. you can be a simple minded person and not cling to spiritual values. you could, in essence, devolve mentally without consulting any concepts about God. it's just like i said earlier, most of your hang ups are coming from what someone else who claims to worship God does, not with your own personal pursuance. you're judging how your relationship is, or even the existence of a relationship, based on historical facts based on institutions. what i'm saying is based on spirituality which is always personal. some institutions might help you achieve some personal sense of spirituality but at the end of the day it a personal effort...