Man I feel like the weight of the world is on my shoulders. I feel the pressure so much my heart race and I sweat. I'm in the type of field where it's all or nothing. U either gain everything or lose everything. And if I wasn't able to make it, well I've wasted many years of my life mastering my craft.
I put alot of pressure on my self because my experiences have traumatized me to the point were I feel like I literally have to be the best in the world or I'm a failure. I strive for perfection, even when I practice. Growing up in Buffalo NY taught how cold the world is, and the fact that not hard I've worked and still had every door shut in my face really taught me that to be successful u have to have a Kobe like work ethic. U have to approach your field with lasers in your eyes , passion, hatred and revenge. I'm also the only child so I never had a helping hand or a network of professional friends . Just me out here trying to figure out life from nothing
Because ain't nothing given to u nothing, I feel like to get an opportunity for a black man, one must be so good that their skill transcend their race. I beat that into my head, even tho my work is on a high level and ppl think it's amazing, I see trash, because if it's not the best, then it's trash to me.
I feel like if I make it I can set things up for struggling family members to make it, I know my talent can change many lives.
That's why I'm on edge alot on the site, somebody reported me and I've received many complaints so I must really be annoying many posters, my apologies but in order to survive in this industry I gotta believe I'm the shyt, I gotta have a certain passion. This is a cutthroat industry where ppl will do anything to get an edge and I can't be soft. U gotta be aggressive, willing to get it by any means.
I put alot of pressure on my self because my experiences have traumatized me to the point were I feel like I literally have to be the best in the world or I'm a failure. I strive for perfection, even when I practice. Growing up in Buffalo NY taught how cold the world is, and the fact that not hard I've worked and still had every door shut in my face really taught me that to be successful u have to have a Kobe like work ethic. U have to approach your field with lasers in your eyes , passion, hatred and revenge. I'm also the only child so I never had a helping hand or a network of professional friends . Just me out here trying to figure out life from nothing
Because ain't nothing given to u nothing, I feel like to get an opportunity for a black man, one must be so good that their skill transcend their race. I beat that into my head, even tho my work is on a high level and ppl think it's amazing, I see trash, because if it's not the best, then it's trash to me.
I feel like if I make it I can set things up for struggling family members to make it, I know my talent can change many lives.
That's why I'm on edge alot on the site, somebody reported me and I've received many complaints so I must really be annoying many posters, my apologies but in order to survive in this industry I gotta believe I'm the shyt, I gotta have a certain passion. This is a cutthroat industry where ppl will do anything to get an edge and I can't be soft. U gotta be aggressive, willing to get it by any means.
