Anyone else stop LIVING and just EXISTING?

[666 ReVeNGe 666]

I WAS AT A COOKOUT OVER THE WEEKEND AND EVERYONE WAS JUST LAUGHING DRINKING AND HAVING FUN BUT I WAS JUST SITTING THERE...JUST WATCHING LIKE A FLY ON THE WALL...SOME MOMENTS I WOULD PARTICIPATE AND JOKE AROUND AND shyt BUT OTHER TIMES MY SADNESS GOT THE BEST OF ME....AND I JUST ZONED OUT AND shyt.....THIS IS A BATTLE I CAN WIN BUT IT IS JUST WEIRD.

I USED TO BE POSTING ALOT OF PICS AND HAVING FUN ON SOCIAL MEDIA BUT NOW I DELETED IT ALL AND I'M ISOLATING MYSELF IN A STRANGE WAY.

I'M ISOLATING MYSELF AT WORK TOO..fukk A HAPPY HOUR.

I MISS THE OLD ME.

 

[DirtyMoneyIslandBoyz]

I WAS AT A COOKOUT OVER THE WEEKEND AND EVERYONE WAS JUST LAUGHING DRINKING AND HAVING FUN BUT I WAS JUST SITTING THERE

you that nikka huh

 

[???]

my nikka being real with himself and this fake bullshyt society...

 

[AquaCityBoy]

I'm trying to get out more, but I don't know how to approach people anymore.

 

[666 ReVeNGe 666]

you that nikka huh

Lol not all the time

I would just snap out of it once I noticed I was "being that guy"

I was drunk too though so maybe I was just tired

 

[Yuzo]

I WAS AT A COOKOUT OVER THE WEEKEND AND EVERYONE WAS JUST LAUGHING DRINKING AND HAVING FUN BUT I WAS JUST SITTING THERE...JUST WATCHING LIKE A FLY ON THE WALL...

maybe it wasnt your kind of crowd

 

[Mr. Negative]

I'm at a point where I really cant do shyt else right now.

I think murder or suicide every day.

But every (and yes, I've said this here before) every moment I think "I can't do this anymore" is another moment I do it.

So I fight. Like existence itself is my enemy.

I'm fighting existence to the death.

 

[???]

I'm trying to get out more, but I don't know how to approach people anymore.

when you live in a society with bad news every second of the day, how can you enjoy this fake place except you pretend and act like shyt aint going on?

everyday i wake up in this bytch, i expect to see some gay ass homo alerts with all kinds of bad news fukkery, this tmz shyt is getting unreal and has taken over everything in society.

it wasn't like this when i was growing up, now almost everything has become so depressing and fake that even genuine happiness doesn't feel real anymore...

 

[SirReginald]

Do all black kids want to grow up and become rappers?

Spoiler

You aren't slick homie

 

[Knuckles Red]

You sound depressed. I suffer from depression and whenever it first started to develop, over 10 years ago, I started to lose interest in everything. I don't have any advice on how you should deal with whatever you're going through, but just know that there are others out here going through shyt too. You're not alone.

 

[666 ReVeNGe 666]

maybe it wasnt your kind of crowd

Its my family and shyt.
I'm just weird sometimes

Depression :-(

 

[666 ReVeNGe 666]

You sound depressed. I suffer from depression and whenever it first started to develop, over 10 years ago, I started to lose interest in everything. I don't have any advice on how you should deal with whatever you're going through, but just know that there are others out here going through shyt too. You're not alone.

Yeah I am

I usually just wanna stay in but I've been going out more and trying.

I noticed that I withdrew socially

 

[666 ReVeNGe 666]

Do all black kids want to grow up and become rappers?

Spoiler

You aren't slick homie

I wasn't tryna be racist. I apologize.

I more so should have made it more educational about why black kids want to be entertainers and how should try to change that

 

[unit321]

I WAS AT A COOKOUT OVER THE WEEKEND AND EVERYONE WAS JUST LAUGHING DRINKING AND HAVING FUN BUT I WAS JUST SITTING THERE...JUST WATCHING LIKE A FLY ON THE WALL...SOME MOMENTS I WOULD PARTICIPATE AND JOKE AROUND AND shyt BUT OTHER TIMES MY SADNESS GOT THE BEST OF ME....AND I JUST ZONED OUT AND shyt.....THIS IS A BATTLE I CAN WIN BUT IT IS JUST WEIRD.

I USED TO BE POSTING ALOT OF PICS AND HAVING FUN ON SOCIAL MEDIA BUT NOW I DELETED IT ALL AND I'M ISOLATING MYSELF IN A STRANGE WAY.

I'M ISOLATING MYSELF AT WORK TOO..fukk A HAPPY HOUR.

I MISS THE OLD ME.

Were you invited to that cookout or you just crashed a church picnic where you don't even attend that church but wanted free hamburgers?

 

[Micky Mikey]

Life is literally what you pay your mind to.