So I'm writing this because I think I have a problem I need to snap out of I dunno if someone went through it can just tell me to straighten up but its not that serious thought I'd just share. So if yall have read any of my previous post you'll know I was dealing with 2 ballers one who was on Morning Wood and his teammate. Well Morning Wood is forever out the picture and I've been casually dating Teammate. I'm so attracted to him he f***s me so good, I'm talking multiple orgasm. Sex is so good I've almost uttered the words I love you cos I was in deep pleasure. I even let his teammate watch us bang. All he does though is smoke a lot of weed, play video games, listen to ratchet music and flirt probably bang other chicks. He's the type you'll see on the news arrested for marijuana possession. I come from a straight laced strict conservative family. There is no way I could bring him home to my father. My aunts have hooked me up with engineers, lawyers business men etc but I just can't I always go back to these bad ass athletes. Like this dude lies to me all the time he, we go out he flirts in my face and tells me"you know who's my baby at the end of the day, you know who I'm coming home to and I stay. Its not the fame I even want from it, its like the drama of it all makes me feel alive. Everytime I drive to his house I'm never sure if I'll catch him in bed with another female that's like drugs to me my heart pumps faster. I went through his phone the other day it was pure females flirting etc and I told him I went through it but he was so high he didn't even get mad he had same ol answer you know you my baby. All this shyt annoys me but I'm obsessed with it. It turns me on too. Has anyone ever felt like this and does it take something dramatic for me to snap out of it. The only positive with him he has no kids so no baby mama drama.
