
My inner monologue sounds like Nore reading a dictionary

Mind chatter. One of the first steps on a path to enlightenment is to eliminate it. It's essentially the ego. The devil is also a metephor for the voice in your head. To become one with self, you have to kill the duality and reveal your true consciousness.
One exercise to eliminate mind chatter is to simply dismiss any verbal thought you have as soon as it takes place. It takes constant practice, but if you stay disciplined you will start seeing results in as little as a few weeks. You will notice that your mind is much more empty and free of clutter.
Next, you need to start the practice meditation, which calms the mind even more. I have to stop posting because I'm about to go to bed. If I will fukk around and write a book on this shyt![]()
let me break it down.
in my mind there are 2 me's.
one is on stage and the other is in the audience.
me on stage is doing his thing...me in the audience is judging, laughing, booing, clapping, crying, etc.
it's how my mind works.

what your teenage mom was thinking when she walked out that "clinic"@Raul said I don't have one and I am confused..please hell

You don't mull over ideas in your head before you bring them out. shyt comes out of your mouth as soon as it enters your head
Guessing this is based of the type random threads you make

Obviously people are different but I think this approach is a mistake.
Anything in regards to spirituality where you are focusing your attention on resisting or suppressing something is just going to make you focus on it harder. The first step in enlightenment is not to play wack-a-mole with your thoughts, it's to understand that YOU (as consciousness) are the observer of the thought process. Trying to stop the flow of thought is like trying to stop the flow of water, temporary, wasted effort. Even he most advanced yogi still has thoughts, they just aren't attached to them. Their attention is so internally focused that the thoughts come and go without letting it influence their state.
and my mind was noticeably empty. To this day, my mind is fairly empty, although I'm not on the same level I once was. When you are in that state, you literally don't think, you just act. Like the saying, I am.