i'm insecure about my music and its crippled me as far as
actively pursing it
i still release it, im on all platforms but i dont push it
i'll post in the tunnel every once in a while but that about it
part of that is i dont really know how. i ve tried alot of shyt that just never went anywhere
but its also because its been nothing but rejection thus far
if i try to work with people, they give me the run around
if i submit music anywhere, they dont respond or they let me down easy
i got friends that make content, need music, know i make it but...
people will beg me to play or send them stuff im working on then have no response whatsover
i had to stop playing my music for friends because it put me in my head so bad to have people ask to hear my shyt, then they just talk over it or look around the room all awkward
just last week they were all getting on me saying i be making shyt and hiding it and im like bytch ive been streaming everywhere for years now and none of yall bother to play any of it,ever
on the flipside, ive gotten random love from strangers that lets me know im not complete trash
ive had people stumble onto my songs, playlist them and my streams spike
even still, im hesitant to chase it
i just decided that I love making music, i love the music I make, so im going to release it and i'll push it when I feel like
i just have to quit stopping and going cause thats killed me in the past
ive changed names, deleted shyt...and then have random people catch up to me like "i fukked with your shyt, what happened

"
its basically self sabotage due to lack of confidence and uncertainty