I had a @brother walt moment at work. I hate When somebody tell me to do something I hate it, I get this violent anger inside of me, I've always been like this. I used to hate when my dad would tell me something esp when I knew my way was better coming up.
Today my dept manager told me to vacuum the carpet in my area. man i wanted to turn into the hulk. Man like what the fukk do I look like vacuuming a carpet, a servant? some fukking peasant? I'm a king, a ruler...I have great ambitions and talents. #1 i shouldn't even be working there, I'm only there because I was blackballed in my city via institutionalized racism. I felt like a bytch, and I started to think about birth of a nation and damn, felt like i shamed my ancestors.
I still built my own company, site, logo, style, philosophy, completed over 400 projects all on my own. I'm a bad motherfukker and I got this goofy cac that walk crooked, that weight 130 LBs telling me to grab vacuum. I told myself . "breh u worked to hard to come this far, don't throw it away. I literately be living a whole new life in less than a month, just suck it up and do it, don't get arrested, u know these dudes don't play fair, they got the po's on their side". that's some emasculating shyt. Vacuum the carpet....fukk I look like a fukking maid? I created a 15 piece full length project with my bare hands and this mothafukker accomplished what again? he should be vacuuming my carpet in my penthouse . I cant believe Im taking orders from guy
then I heard them mocking this black girl that they basically forced to quit. They did the typical white supremacist thing, and shes naive so she don't know the game like me, im warlike at the job, like a fukking robot, totally void of personality and emotion, scanning for racism and ways to corner it. I don't talk to nobody except the black dudes and one cool white dude and that's it. But she actually thought they were her friends and they pulled their dirty cac tricks and got the poor girl to quit and they were mocking her today, which is no surprise, I know these motherfukkers so well, that's to be expected.
I digress, having to bow down to these dude that got his little dept job that he didn't earn is disheartening and infuriating. really the only thing that's keeping me from becoming a physical force is the threat of jail, if society was to totally breakdown and it was the wild wild west. There's nothing stopping me from knocking dudes teeth out and taking his wallet. but we got rules in place. U gotta play the game mental in america, everything here is passive aggression. that's why u gotta become emotionless and cold, play chess at the job. We actually were in the same art program once upon the time years back, and I have talent unlike him and the other losers in that program. Hes probably hating, I'm sure they seen my work.
Today my dept manager told me to vacuum the carpet in my area. man i wanted to turn into the hulk. Man like what the fukk do I look like vacuuming a carpet, a servant? some fukking peasant? I'm a king, a ruler...I have great ambitions and talents. #1 i shouldn't even be working there, I'm only there because I was blackballed in my city via institutionalized racism. I felt like a bytch, and I started to think about birth of a nation and damn, felt like i shamed my ancestors.
I still built my own company, site, logo, style, philosophy, completed over 400 projects all on my own. I'm a bad motherfukker and I got this goofy cac that walk crooked, that weight 130 LBs telling me to grab vacuum. I told myself . "breh u worked to hard to come this far, don't throw it away. I literately be living a whole new life in less than a month, just suck it up and do it, don't get arrested, u know these dudes don't play fair, they got the po's on their side". that's some emasculating shyt. Vacuum the carpet....fukk I look like a fukking maid? I created a 15 piece full length project with my bare hands and this mothafukker accomplished what again? he should be vacuuming my carpet in my penthouse . I cant believe Im taking orders from guy
then I heard them mocking this black girl that they basically forced to quit. They did the typical white supremacist thing, and shes naive so she don't know the game like me, im warlike at the job, like a fukking robot, totally void of personality and emotion, scanning for racism and ways to corner it. I don't talk to nobody except the black dudes and one cool white dude and that's it. But she actually thought they were her friends and they pulled their dirty cac tricks and got the poor girl to quit and they were mocking her today, which is no surprise, I know these motherfukkers so well, that's to be expected.
I digress, having to bow down to these dude that got his little dept job that he didn't earn is disheartening and infuriating. really the only thing that's keeping me from becoming a physical force is the threat of jail, if society was to totally breakdown and it was the wild wild west. There's nothing stopping me from knocking dudes teeth out and taking his wallet. but we got rules in place. U gotta play the game mental in america, everything here is passive aggression. that's why u gotta become emotionless and cold, play chess at the job. We actually were in the same art program once upon the time years back, and I have talent unlike him and the other losers in that program. Hes probably hating, I'm sure they seen my work.
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she's latina... Dominicans don't want to be black and I don't want to be so 
A typo, huh?