I've always been in this state, and so have you. The logic goes something like this:
I'm not smoking a cigarette now (at this very moment). Therefore, I don't have to smoke a cigarette 1 second from now, 2 seconds from now, 3 seconds from now, a minute from now, an hour from now, a day from now, a month from now, a year from now, etc.
I don't feel anxious right now (at this very moment). Therefore, I don't have to feel anxious 1 second from now, 2 seconds from now, 3 seconds from now, a minute from now, an hour from now, a day from now, a month from now, a year from now, etc.
Sometimes I DO feel anxious, but I'm not anxious ALL the time, so it's not who I am. It's something I DO...but it's not who I am.
On some level, you already understand this. You can see the logic in it, right? Yet, you still feel like you HAVE to feel anxious at certain times right? You have to consume sugar at certain times right? Well, none of that is true. You don't HAVE to do anything to simply exist (to be who you are). Sometimes, you might WANT to do things, but you never HAVE to.
This is 100% factual. The reality is, you're nothing more than a sentient being...you're something that exists. You might DO certain things, but those actions don't make you who you are (a thing that exists). In order to achieve enlightenment, you have to stop believing what other people think of you...no matter how bad or good it is. You have to practice rejecting positive and negative thoughts about yourself...and simply exist in the moment. It takes practice but you can do it too! I swear to god, anybody can. If you do this, you'll begin to understand that there's no difference between having sex, riding a bike, reading a book, or eating a lobster. These are all states of existence.
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So you let go of your earthly tether, became empty and entered the void? You should try jumping off a building to see if you can fly.
. I was feeling kinda lonely here.
