ben anderson
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going to keep it short.
Used to be 285 pounds. Wanted to get a girlfriend. Dropped to about 200( 2-3 years no juice,walking, throwing up mostly tho). As a kid my mom told me I ate a lot, way more than my dad and my older bro. I really can't control this shyt and I need help. Ate 2 lil Caesars pizzas and 3 mcchickens for dinner today and 2 tequitoS from 7 eleven and a bag of the mediums sized Doritos. If my mom cooks food for the fam, I can literally eat half the pot of rice(my favorite food) and chicken. I'm Caribbean so she cooks a lot for the week, but it's usual gone within 2-3 days. I believe I have suffer from 2 eating disorders. Binge eating and now bulemia from losing trying to lose the weight. And in edition to those I believe I have body dismorphia.When I was skinnier I felt amazing I was happy all the time, girls who played me suddenly confess their "feelings" for me and how they didn't think I liked them back
. Got some p*ssy for the first time. But it actually made me I guess angry and turned me on some
shyt. I was a fat sack of shyt and I realize that, but the way people treated me, not just women but my family and "friends" was crazy. Friends always asking me to hang out and inviting me to shyt, mom now always trying to show me off to her friends and other family members when only my older brother would get that. Being fat idk I guess makes you see how nikkas really are. I'm around 240 now because I haven't been throwing up my food so I gained a lot of weight back. I had p*ssy so I'm not really pressed about getting it although i still have urges to get it. summers coming so I might start it up again
shyt be fukked up as a fat nikka for real. Going to the doc to see if he can prescribe me anything and going to talk o the therapist about this shyt. Because as of now I really hate everyone.( not on some school shooting shyt tho)
Used to be 285 pounds. Wanted to get a girlfriend. Dropped to about 200( 2-3 years no juice,walking, throwing up mostly tho). As a kid my mom told me I ate a lot, way more than my dad and my older bro. I really can't control this shyt and I need help. Ate 2 lil Caesars pizzas and 3 mcchickens for dinner today and 2 tequitoS from 7 eleven and a bag of the mediums sized Doritos. If my mom cooks food for the fam, I can literally eat half the pot of rice(my favorite food) and chicken. I'm Caribbean so she cooks a lot for the week, but it's usual gone within 2-3 days. I believe I have suffer from 2 eating disorders. Binge eating and now bulemia from losing trying to lose the weight. And in edition to those I believe I have body dismorphia.When I was skinnier I felt amazing I was happy all the time, girls who played me suddenly confess their "feelings" for me and how they didn't think I liked them back
. Got some p*ssy for the first time. But it actually made me I guess angry and turned me on some shyt. I was a fat sack of shyt and I realize that, but the way people treated me, not just women but my family and "friends" was crazy. Friends always asking me to hang out and inviting me to shyt, mom now always trying to show me off to her friends and other family members when only my older brother would get that. Being fat idk I guess makes you see how nikkas really are. I'm around 240 now because I haven't been throwing up my food so I gained a lot of weight back. I had p*ssy so I'm not really pressed about getting it although i still have urges to get it. summers coming so I might start it up againshyt be fukked up as a fat nikka for real. Going to the doc to see if he can prescribe me anything and going to talk o the therapist about this shyt. Because as of now I really hate everyone.( not on some school shooting shyt tho)
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