I definitely feel that. Had a long term relationship (4 years) dissolve last November 2021. I wouldn’t say I’m still heartbroken over her like I was earlier this year but I definitely feel numb. Apathetic. Towards meeting someone new. I just turned 38 (birthday was last month). I’m just doing me and giving myself time to 100% heal before I make a conscious effort to put myself back out there. She definitely did some damage. She will be the last woman I give 100%
Good luck though on your journey. Hope it all sorts itself out for you
It's smart to take a breather before jumping back in. In consideration of the next woman if nothing else. It's kinda mean to use someone to drown your sorrows with no possibility of actually connecting (I'm sure SOME rebounds last, but I ain't never found a new relationship immediately after one ends. Usually just a trail of debauchery for a couple years, then get serious again)