i don't know if i can fight depression too much longer

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i have some pretty dark thoughts swirling in my head right now....i don't know how to cope with this society, i been lonely my whole life...i could never relate to anything or anybody,.....i don't got nobody that i can talk to...y'all the only ppl i can share anything with...i don't trust nobody plus i cant show them weakness...ill end up on their dinner plate


i don't know man anymore....the only thing i got keeping me alive is my family, i would hate to hurt them....im out of answers...and $ cant save me either, sex, materialism or anything else this society force on us...

i always tell myself its just temporary, i seem always go through lapses and bounce back but i don't see the light @ the end of the tunnel
 

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I suffer from depression to. Over the last few months, I'd started to have sucidal thoughts everyday is like a struggle for me because everything is almost a trigger that would send me into another episode. You got any hobbies breh???? You gotta have some type of release when things get to difficult to deal with. Some people paint,workout,make music. Things like that
 

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I suffer from depression to. Over the last few months, I'd started to have sucidal thoughts everyday is like a struggle for me because everything is almost a trigger that would send me into another episode. You got any hobbies breh???? You gotta have some type of release when things get to difficult to deal with. Some people paint,workout,make music. Things like that
i tried that....
 

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What happen.... what's your reason behind the depression
probably my thought process, i cant see the good in anything, even when i try....my thoughts eat me alive

also i grew up always bymyself so now as a adult i cant form a stable relationship with anyway....i know how to play the part but really i cant relate to the ppl im sociable with
 

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probably my thought process, i cant see the good in anything, even when i try....my thoughts eat me alive

also i grew up always bymyself so now as a adult i cant form a stable relationship with anyway....i know how to play the part but really i cant relate to the ppl im sociable with


Why can't u relate
 
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Idk what to really say. That shyt is just an everlasting battle for me. I'm just tryna remain as positive as possible because when I really do get to thinking my thoughts eat me too
finding god again helped me out some....back when i was a money p*ssy chasing atheist i was really fukked up,
 

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yup.....its cool but overall it cant cure nothing
I feel you breh, I try do nding ways to get out my thoughts as well. The playoffs been helping, going to hoop can be temporary as well. You still healthy(as far as I know) you could be bed ridden with cancer or some other crazy shyt. You gotta try to find all the positives
 
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