On some real shyt though when I first caught that racism backlash from anyone who wasn't white judging me because I had 'privilege' I was hurt bad no joke. I ain't gonna pull the I gotta black/hispanic/asian friend card, but from the age of 2-7 I was raised in the projects where me n my mom an sister were the only white people. I didn't know back then how lucky I was as a kid that I didn't even notice the difference of color, all I knew was that you weren't shyt if you didn't have a bike an I finally got one. Some black kids said they were gonna fight on my mom's porch an' she chased them off. Brought all their angry mama's over and they asked what happened and she just told them that she knows their mamas raised them better n' that. Every year in the summer we had the fire department release a water valve and let all the kids jump around, I remember I was a little tiny white kid running right up to it and got blasted like 10 ft back and laughing at my own stupid mistake. Man me n this kid Quan was like brothers, I used to fight a Milati(mixed) kid named Cameron on the back of the bus everyday, makin' faces at the older teenagers and they laughin their asses off.
All this I'm sayin I wish I wasn't white cause being white ain't shyt. We don't have a tight-knit community, we're 'crazy-ass white people' is what I use all the time to describe anything that goes wrong in this world. I am a racist against myself and my whole race. Thankfully my great-great-grandmama (Maw-maw) let me know that her lineage, my grandfather's, my father's, and my lineage are of Egyptian descent.
I am catchin feelings, I am feeling guilty of racism against any race that isn't white, because as a white person I am automatically considered as a racist-elitist, and though no one reading this may never believe it, I proudly proclaim that I've never used a racial-slur or bigotry intended to insult anyone. I know racism will never stop, and I can't change my color or my genetics. I'm stuck between a war that's silently still going in the background. I don't feel sorry for any race, or myself, and I do help anyone I can. This is it though, brehs. I'm packing up and headin' on the road lord knows where I go, gotta machete in my bag and I do know how to use it. If you're walkin down the road and you see a skinny ass white kid who looks like he's homeless, say 'Paradime' real loud because that's me.
I don't have any other options, I've tried everything I could've done y'all, pray for me. I might be back, probably not. Thank you for lettin me in the doors to this great community, I'm gonna miss it. No offense to anyone I've ever offended, if I did offend you.
All this I'm sayin I wish I wasn't white cause being white ain't shyt. We don't have a tight-knit community, we're 'crazy-ass white people' is what I use all the time to describe anything that goes wrong in this world. I am a racist against myself and my whole race. Thankfully my great-great-grandmama (Maw-maw) let me know that her lineage, my grandfather's, my father's, and my lineage are of Egyptian descent.
I am catchin feelings, I am feeling guilty of racism against any race that isn't white, because as a white person I am automatically considered as a racist-elitist, and though no one reading this may never believe it, I proudly proclaim that I've never used a racial-slur or bigotry intended to insult anyone. I know racism will never stop, and I can't change my color or my genetics. I'm stuck between a war that's silently still going in the background. I don't feel sorry for any race, or myself, and I do help anyone I can. This is it though, brehs. I'm packing up and headin' on the road lord knows where I go, gotta machete in my bag and I do know how to use it. If you're walkin down the road and you see a skinny ass white kid who looks like he's homeless, say 'Paradime' real loud because that's me.
I don't have any other options, I've tried everything I could've done y'all, pray for me. I might be back, probably not. Thank you for lettin me in the doors to this great community, I'm gonna miss it. No offense to anyone I've ever offended, if I did offend you.
