I think I'm clinically depressed...I want to end it

[SlowPaceThrillah]

Well that's exactly what I was saying. To me, depression is only an illness if a person who has no reason to be depressed is depressed. How you gonna tell me someone who's life is miserable because they're socially isolated, poor, physically disabled, etc. is depressed due to a mental illness? They're depressed because of the negative circumstances of their lives.

Well, I don't think the chemical imbalance that develops in a depressed person's brain really gives that much of a fukk about what's in their check-in account. By the same token you could have someone lonely, sick and broke who remains fulfilled and optimistic despite their circumstances. A less well off person's mind just doesn't have to look as hard for things in their life to justify them feeling like shyt all the time.

It's not dissimilar from how someone can live healthy and die of cancer in their 50s while a 80 year old chain smoker keeps breathing.

 

[StickStickly]

It's like I'm happy one minute and then I'm sad the next, I hate working at my job,it's like I'm thankful for having a job but it doesn't make me happy..a feeling of dread..or a state of melancholy is what one might call it comes over me when it's time to go to work. I feel like it's always. Bills bills bills and I never have money to spend on myself and I have a newborn so it makes it worse. Don't get me wrong I love my baby girl like no other and wouldn't change a thing,it's just that I want to provide more for her. I'm enrolled in school now entering my 3rd semester but I feel like it's not taking off. I just feel stuck and it's becoming unbearable. I feel enslaved by bills and HAVING TO WORK.

Nothing in life is static. Don't give up because you feel down right now. Your feelings will change. And yes you may feel down again, but remember you won't always have this job and you won't always like your job, but you deserve to live for your future self, who will thank you for being the person you are today.

 

[Dominic Brehetto]

so fukking true. great posts in this thread, dude.. really.

a compliment to me is basically an insult.

i hate when im being deprecating to myself like getting ready and looking in the mirror and say "wow, i look like shyt" or "im so ugly" and my mom says something like "omg dani, no you don't..i wish i was as skinny as you etc etc blah fukking blah blah"

because the way i process it is not as compliment, at all. i don't think as compliments as compliments, i mentally process them as insults like i think "no, you're only saying that because youre my mother and you're supposed to say things like that to try and make me feel better".

last week or so some guy i "know" from highschool messaged me on facebook and was like "is this the Dani i went to school with? Wow, you're looking really good these days, we should hang out sometime" and I thought "oh.. these days?" cause THOSE days in highschool when you were popular, i was ugly.. but now you're out of high school and not a popular jock and gained 80 pounds im good enough for you to talk to now?"

You're beautiful and love lloyd banks, who couldnt love you?

 

[PhonZhi]

I'm man'd up!!! My priorities come first it's just sometimes life gets the better of me, I thinking about going to a trade school just to boost my credentials...I'm currently taking my secuirty class the get dcjs certified and I'm indecisive on if I want to take up welding or get my CDL..I'm also majoring in criminal justice. I just don't want to fail my child and life is hard at times. I've been struggling with this for 8+ years I'm 25 btw.

getcha CDL my bro!!! I just got mine this year and I couldn't be happier. im doing the over the road thing rite now and I love it!! like you I have a lil one so im going to do this for 1 year then find me a local gig. this is the perfect type job for me. main reason is cuz I work alone. 2nd reason is the total freedom to be myself. I dress how i want to everyday, no havin to keep a clean shaven face, I plan my day how I want to. ive had that feeling of dread going to a job so I know how you feel. those days are over for me. everyday I wake up I cant believe im actually getting paid to drive and listen to music .what do you want to do with a CDL? if you have any questions about truck driving PM me. ive only been at it for 1 month so I don't have all the answers. good luck tho

 

[BantuKnotz99]

getcha CDL my bro!!! I just got mine this year and I couldn't be happier. im doing the over the road thing rite now and I love it!! like you I have a lil one so im going to do this for 1 year then find me a local gig. this is the perfect type job for me. main reason is cuz I work alone. 2nd reason is the total freedom to be myself. I dress how i want to everyday, no havin to keep a clean shaven face, I plan my day how I want to. ive had that feeling of dread going to a job so I know how you feel. those days are over for me. everyday I wake up I cant believe im actually getting paid to drive and listen to music .what do you want to do with a CDL? if you have any questions about truck driving PM me. ive only been at it for 1 month so I don't have all the answers. good luck tho

I'm bout to pm u now breh

 

[BantuKnotz99]

And also thanks to all you guys for your input,oddly enough some of you actually put a smile on my face with your retorts

 

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Welcome to fukkin life brah! Welcome to the real world brah!

 

[Yup]

@dalpod2012 hope you're feeling better but check into a hospital because depression is real. You have a child so you need to take care of yourself as well.

 

[CakeEater]

Might off my self
fukk this planet

 

[same damn lo sweater]

re: meds. get off em (if you can)