I'm at my mom's house.

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For the first time in years. I'm in my old room. I can't stop thinking about my childhood. I discussed my relationship with my mother here. So me being here is a big deal.

I've come a long way. I spend all my time avoiding this. To be here now reminds me of a lot of shyt I don't want to think about.

My childhood was fukked up. I can't stop thinking about my ex gf. If we would have succeeded in having a child we'd still be living in the hood.

All my friends I grew up with are still here. With kids. Unmarried. Working the same jobs.

I feel bad man. I have options. I'm 26 this year and I have no kids. That sucks. I wanted to have kids by now very badly. I thought I'd be with my wife to be by now and well into my career as a professional baller or trainer. Only one of my friends made out the hood and we live together, we promised each other to never stop until we get ourselves out the hood.

I never thought I'd be somewhat happy with being single. Working a job. And being low key. I could see myself never having kids or dating again. It's not something I need any more. If I don't have a family I don't need to make a lot of money because I'm just supporting myself.

I don't even drive my car anymore. And my car is hella nice. I used to sleep in my car because I loved it so much.

All my older relatives live off my mom. I moved out years ago, haven't relied on my mom, and I'm the youngest.

I'm looking at my old shyt and I'll never be that kid again. I dunno if it's good or bad. It makes me sad because that version of me was so loving and trusting. I really believed in people.

I'd call that version myself an idiot. That version of myself would call me boring as fukk.

I have to admit this somewhere because I never will IRL. I'm heart broken. The world broke my fukking heart. I believed in people so much and they consistently let me down.

I hope one day someone will try to unbreak my heart because I'm pretty much the walking dead.
 
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Damn breh, I know this has to be tough for you. But I really do hope you can work it out with your moms.

When it comes to dealing with your friends who have kids, with no marriage. My whole timeline is like this. Seriously, not one of my friends who's has kids are married. Tragic!

I'm hoping for the best breh.

I'll rep you when I can breh. :salute:
 

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So you're 26, single with no kids, a nice car and a nice job? Sounds like you're doing pretty well for yourself breh :obama:

I feel you tho, becoming jaded is the WOAT. You look back on your childhood innocence and reminisce about how easy you had it.

But breh, don't sip on that kool aid too much, nostalgia is deceptive. It's better to look towards the future or you'll get left behind in the past.

you not even 30 yet, so you get plenty of time to find a wife too & have kids too. It's more responsible bringing children into the world when you're ready to do so.
 

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@Ali13 @SJUGrad13 @BocaRear I appreciate the support. This is a weird place to be in for me right now. Bros, even the dog I grew up with is dead. shyt is wild. I'm not sad. I'm just experiencing serious nostalgia and feeling appreciative that I got the fukk out the hood. Yes, I let myself down by not going pro in anything, but I made it out the hood on my own.

I'm proud of that. I can be whatever I want from this point in my life. It's kind of cool. I have no major debt. No kids. No relationship, and no family tying me down.
 

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As Morpheous says, welcome to the real world.

But honestly I find it hard to believe in anything nowdays and I think it's a byproduct of our generation having to delay so many things.
 
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Dude what is wrong with you man.

I know you said your moms put some stupid stuff into your head but now I know it's for real.

Stay as far away from her as possible along with the rest of your fam before they drag you down with them.

You got to elevate your mind breh. Surround yourself with movers and shakers. fukk this sub-par just above poverty average negroid shyt and GET UP.

Brehs look UP and FORWARD....Not BACK.
 
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You 26 talking bout Wife and kids....

I'm 30 and not worried about no damn kids. My 18 year old sister is pregnant but that is some shyt she brought upon herself. She done know how I feel about baby mommas and she went ahead and did it anyways.

She got bad genes from her mother, hard headed and didn't listen. You can't save everyone sometimes not even your own half flesh and blood.

So you are a stand out in your family. Continue standing out. You got the good genes and the rest of them didn't.

It's a hard fact of reality but hardly changeable. Move forward without them.
 

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@Ali13 @SJUGrad13 @BocaRear I appreciate the support. This is a weird place to be in for me right now. Bros, even the dog I grew up with is dead. shyt is wild. I'm not sad. I'm just experiencing serious nostalgia and feeling appreciative that I got the fukk out the hood. Yes, I let myself down by not going pro in anything, but I made it out the hood on my own.

I'm proud of that. I can be whatever I want from this point in my life. It's kind of cool. I have no major debt. No kids. No relationship, and no family tying me down.

You, LITERALLY, have the world at your fingers.
Make the most of it breh.
You're the hope of the rest of us...
Much love breh.
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When I was at the store about two weeks ago, some woman in the line behind me was talking with another woman about how her daughter is talking about she's gonna live at home for the rest of her life and she don't wanna move out.

If your children are that lazy, it's all on you.
 
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