"I literally thought of self-annihilation so that [my family] could survive. That’s how low I was," the 'Breaking Bad' actor said.
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Giancarlo Esposito, a.k.a. Gustavo Fring on 'Breaking Bad,' says when his life was at its lowest, he thought about plotting his own murder for the insurance money.
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During an appearance on SiriusXM’s
Jim & Sam show, Esposito said he went through two bankruptcies before landing
Breaking Bad, as well as a foreclosure on his home. At his lowest, he told the hosts, he considered suicide.
“The first thing that had me think there was a way out, was my wife’s father — God rest his soul — Pops McManigal was in insurance,” Esposito said. “So I asked [my ex-wife], I started poking around, ‘How much am I insured for?’ And then she told me. My way out in my brain was, I said, ‘Hey, do you get life insurance, if someone commits suicide, do they get the bread?’ And my wife said, ‘Well, that’s kind of tricky.’”
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Giancarlo Esposito Says He Was So Broke He Considered Arranging His Own Murder
"I literally thought of self-annihilation so that [my family] could survive. That’s how low I was," the 'Breaking Bad' actor said.
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Zoe G. Phillips
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April 18, 2024 5:28pm
Giancarlo Esposito ABC/Lorenzo Bevilaqua
Giancarlo Esposito looked back at his financial struggles this week, recalling a time when he considered ordering his own murder in pursuit of a life insurance payout for his family.
During an appearance on SiriusXM’s
Jim & Sam show, Esposito said he went through two bankruptcies before landing
Breaking Bad, as well as a foreclosure on his home. At his lowest, he told the hosts, he considered suicide.
“The first thing that had me think there was a way out, was my wife’s father — God rest his soul — Pops McManigal was in insurance,” Esposito said. “So I asked [my ex-wife], I started poking around, ‘How much am I insured for?’ And then she told me. My way out in my brain was, I said, ‘Hey, do you get life insurance, if someone commits suicide, do they get the bread?’ And my wife said, ‘Well, that’s kind of tricky.’”
Esposito said from there, he “just started scheming.”
“If I got somebody to knock me off, death through misadventure, they would get the insurance,” he said. “I had four kids. I wanted them to have a life. It was a hard moment in time. I literally thought of self-annihilation so that they could survive. That’s how low I was.”
Though he came close to the drastic measure, Esposito said it was his family that ultimately saved him.
“I started to think, that’s not viable because the pain I would cause them would be lifelong, and lifelong trauma that would just extend the generational trauma with which I’m trying to move away from,” he said. “The light at the end of the tunnel was
Breaking Bad. I had a few little things before to start to recover, but
Breaking Bad was the light.”