JerseyBoy23
Veteran
My mom passed away on Monday after having a heart attack and I’m having a hard time dealing with it. One moment I’m talking to her, then I leave room so she could try to get some sleep since she was tired. A few minutes later I hear some weird gasping noise.
Once I realized she was out I called 911 and started attempting CPR but it didn’t work. Once EMS came they tried everything but couldn’t revive her. My dad was out on his way to a doctor’s appointment so I was home alone for those few helpless minutes.
Everyone is telling me that it’s not my fault but I just can’t help but feel like I failed her. Maybe I should’ve stayed in the room or called 911 first instead of checking on her.
She had a rare form of arthritis and her body was always in pain, it was so bad that she was basically home bound for the last decade. In that period, I pretty much became her unofficial caretaker and in the process she became my best friend.
In addition to that, I lost my grandmother right before the pandemic and my grandfather almost exactly a year ago, both on my father’s side.
I’m down bad guys, I couldn’t even write this post without starting to bawl so sorry for the grammar mistakes.
Edit:
Before this thread starts to go too far down in the pages, I just wanted to say thank you everyone who posted in here and gave kind words and wishes. They have really helped me during the week to start some sort of geeking process.
Even though I’ve never met you guys in person, I can still feel the love and I just wanted to express that I truly do appreciate it. Thanks.
Once I realized she was out I called 911 and started attempting CPR but it didn’t work. Once EMS came they tried everything but couldn’t revive her. My dad was out on his way to a doctor’s appointment so I was home alone for those few helpless minutes.
Everyone is telling me that it’s not my fault but I just can’t help but feel like I failed her. Maybe I should’ve stayed in the room or called 911 first instead of checking on her.
She had a rare form of arthritis and her body was always in pain, it was so bad that she was basically home bound for the last decade. In that period, I pretty much became her unofficial caretaker and in the process she became my best friend.
In addition to that, I lost my grandmother right before the pandemic and my grandfather almost exactly a year ago, both on my father’s side.
I’m down bad guys, I couldn’t even write this post without starting to bawl so sorry for the grammar mistakes.
Edit:
Before this thread starts to go too far down in the pages, I just wanted to say thank you everyone who posted in here and gave kind words and wishes. They have really helped me during the week to start some sort of geeking process.
Even though I’ve never met you guys in person, I can still feel the love and I just wanted to express that I truly do appreciate it. Thanks.
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