Older brehs of the Coli... Do you still have "crushes"?

[Neo. The Only. The One.]

One day you cross paths with "her" and it just hits you... .

I dont understand. Hasn't happened to me in probably 14 or 15 years now.

Maybe you're right. Never say never.

As I said yesterday, for me at this point it's just about having a decent one that you can build with cause the majority of them are no good unfortunately.

 

[BaldingSoHard]

I dont understand. Hasn't happened to me in probably 14 or 15 years now.

Maybe you're right. Never say never.

As I said yesterday, for me at this point it's just about having a decent one that you can build with cause the majority of them are no good unfortunately.

Man I hear you.

I was in a long term relationship with a "good" woman; an attorney who ran track in high-school. Not a dime but she was definitely fine. The kind of girl that brehs want to have on their arm.

Then, one day at work in 2013, she appeared. I wasn't looking for her. Wasn't desiring a woman like her but there she was. I didn't even know a woman like her existed, but there she was.

Like Mos Def said on the "Love Rain" remix...
"...and then she arrived. Like daybreak inside a railway tunnel. Like a diamond in the mines... Like high-noon to a drunkard... suddenly."

I was never the same again... Started looking at my attorney-girl like . Ended that shyt soon after.

 

[Neo. The Only. The One.]

Man I hear you.

I was in a long term relationship with a "good" woman; an attorney who ran track in high-school. Not a dime but she was definitely fine. The kind of girl that brehs want to have on their arm.

Then, one day at work in 2013, she appeared. I wasn't looking for her. Wasn't desiring a woman like her but there she was. I didn't even know a woman like her existed, but there she was.

Like Mos Def said on the "Love Rain" remix...
"...and then she arrived. Like daybreak inside a railway tunnel. Like a diamond in the mines... Like high-noon to a drunkard... suddenly."

I was never the same again... Started looking at my attorney-girl like . Ended that shyt soon after.

Are you and h.e.r. still together?

 

[re'up]

I think that's something you should always have. "I just crush a lot"

 

[BaldingSoHard]

Are you and h.e.r. still together?

Nah. We had our moment, but in the end we wanted different things.

 

[Neo. The Only. The One.]

Nah. We had our moment, but in the end we wanted different things.

You still feel the same way about her today?

Do you regret leaving the lawyer for her?

I just realized how sad it is that I can no longer see myself in that position with a woman. Where she is just everything I've ever wanted, making me feel butterflies and all those other good feelings.

 

[OperationNumbNutts]

Yeah I do at times.

 

[LeaveMyHairLineAlone]

Aboslutely.

There's a younger girl that be chosing at the store I shop at. She's so fukking pretty, brown skin, dimples, and she's so sweet, has the best vibe. It's a crush because even though I like how I feel around her and I can tell she likes how it feels around me, I'm not sure it's a good idea to engage.

Rather than ruin her life I'ma just let it be cute lol

Might be a treh

 

[BaldingSoHard]

You still feel the same way about her today?

Do you regret leaving the lawyer for her?

I just realized how sad it is that I can no longer see myself in that position with a woman. Where she is just everything I've ever wanted, making me feel butterflies and all those other good feelings.

Do I still feel the same way about her today? Man that's a tough question. I'll say that the answer is "no", but then I'll go a year without seeing her (we stopped talking in 2017) only to run into her at the grocery store or something and in an instant, all the feelings come rushing back and there's nothing I've ever been able to do to stop it. . It throws my life into disarray for a couple weeks every time. I'll wonder if I gave up on her too quickly / easily. I'll wonder if she has changed / grown / matured enough so that our desires might be aligned now. It fukks with my head. I would say I don't feel the same way, but I'm definitely not "over her" if that makes sense. The sad thing is I know if I made another push for her, I could get her back... but there's really no path to "forever" for us so what would be the point? Like I said before, requited yet unobtainable love is a special flavor of heartbreak.

Do I regret leaving the lawyer for her? No, absolutely not. Meeting the new girl helped me realize that my relationship with the other girl had run its course. I do wish I had been nicer to her towards the end, though.

I will add that this woman is one in a million . The girl I'm currently with one time came home and started RAVING about this absolutely gorgeous, elegant, "has-her-shyt-together" type woman she saw at the store. She would not shut up about it (I want her body... I want her car... I want her confidence... etc...), and as her description gained resolution, I realized she was talking about my ex. That was not a fun conversation... at all.