post 1 song that you relate to most on a personal & emotional level and explain why

[NotaPAWG]

aka lil ugly mane



i feel like many parts and lyrics of the song are good at visualizing what it’s like to struggle with bipolar aka manic depression, i haven’t really heard a song that represents the inner struggle and anguish of extreme lows and highs mentally and emotionally like this

IE
“Rode a tractor from Wyoming to Chicago, Illinois
On a carpet of the 50 states, part of me disintegrates
The only thing I'm left with is the part I can't articulate”

to me, basically represents the manic aspect of bipolar, where one feels tons of euphoria and does out of the ordinary and impulsive shyt followed by a huge mental crash

“You never thought about you only
You never had to worry about which part of you to show me
You're just as stupid as you've always been
Treat your stupid little problems like a molecule of oxygen
You're never getting better, you're addicted to the madness
You're treated like a muse, are you happy now, Travis?”

first few lines right represent the struggle of the two polars that are destructive, the struggle between finding our true self because of the madness of highs and lows and how one with bipolar 2 becomes two very different people depending on which polar we are.

the last few lines sum up why many people do not get help or when we do, it’s very easy and common for one to stop because the euphoria that comes with mania is really the only time our mood feels elevated and
self confidence, even though it’s self destructiv

 

[Zero]

Prodigy's verse perfectly encapsulates that "inner voice" people have and I understand that completely because I go through it to this day.

[Prodigy]
Yo..
Is it ill, do it need to be fixed?
(That shyt is real Dunn; and stop talkin like your skills don't kill)
Nah it's just that sometimes I feel like that
I can write more fouler than the last

[Prodigy's "Conscience"]
Yo that shyt is cash trust me Dunn; I'll never lead you astray
Take my word nikkaz wanna hear how you think
It be that shyt that you wouldn't expect to win
that stay playin in they decks over and again
Speak your thoughts, put your all in it
Whatever's in your mind, spit it
Place your anger on the page, release tension on the tape
A stress verse, seem to be what they most thirst
Makes fake nikkaz disperse, they never challenge what works

Sometimes I feel what I do isn't good enough when it damn well is, I just have to get over it and express myself/get it done. I'm actually amazed I haven't let self doubt ruin me at times.

[Prodigy]
Balancin the weakness, is what I specialize in
Dunn you my nikka cause you keep me hype when I'm writin
Kept me on point in the night when it might go down
Keep me eyes wide in the daytime as well
Kept me focused on what's real and nuttin else
I find it healthy, to conversate with myself
I kick it with my delf (I kept you alive, all these years)
It's that inner voice you shoulda took head to and shyt
Coulda been home instead of bleedin
Maybe next time you'll listen when it speaks

[Prodigy's "Conscience"]
Yo Dunn, I got a story to tell
Remember last week's mission? I told you bring the gun
(Yeah I remember) Nah listen, without me you'd be a memory
I'm the one you could come to for guidance
Bring you home alive when you wildin
Kept you out of harm's way, told you when to spray
Told you when it's time to put it away
and when the cops came, you was safe

[Prodigy]
Without question, I stay aware Dunn I'm listenin
Everytime we speak it's real, I know your intention's
to make sure we both safe and livin, and breathin
You gets all respect from me Dunn, believe it

Situational awareness. Being cautious and listening to that voice my head saying "stop," "don't it," and "you really don't need to be here right now" has saved my ass more times than I can count.

[Prodigy's "Conscience"]
Yo we got kids to raise and bills to pay
Enemies to lay down when they stand in our way, it's only us
(What about the click?) Now if you die is they comin?
When you shot do they feel the bullet?
And when you broke can they fix it? Aight then, you keep writin
and let me do the thinkin, I brought us this far without mistaken

I have plenty of friends but I can't and don't use them as crutches because I know only a very close few will take care of mines when I'm gone and even then, I wouldn't want to put it on them when I could've done better.


That's why it hurt me so much when he passed. Very few rap songs I can actually relate to and this is one of them.

 

[Tflasha]

no explanation needed