This was right after I did the Bad Meets Evil album with Eminem. “Lighters” was a big track at the time and it was selling millions of singles. It was probably getting more radio spins than any other record at that time. It was the biggest record in the country and I was literally hanging out in the hood. A former friend of mine owned a bar and I used to go to that bar every day. I started getting into fights up there. See when I am sober I know how to defuse these situations, because I’m a pretty reasonable guy and I can turn the other cheek a little easier. But when I’m drinking, I am not as reasonable. If a person is drunk and I’m sober, I can look past their behavior. But If I’m drinking, you can’t say anything to me, I’m just going to go upside your head.
Long story short, I was making an imbecile of myself. With the way that the Internet is, everything that I was doing, stepping out on my wife and doing shyt with other women, she just kept catching me. I was just sloppy with everything and I didn’t want to be that guy. On top of that, my son was getting a little bit older and starting to see things. One day I just woke up and started thinking about everything. I was thinking about how terrible my relationship was with my wife, my family, and my friends — or at least those that I thought were my friends. I didn’t like the direction it looked like it was going and I was just tired of it.
I also felt like I had a second chance with my career, in which I wasn’t just an underground artist making underground shyt every year. I was reaching a level where I could make some real noise. I knew in order to turn this corner in my career, something had to change. There was no way I was going to reach this plateau drunk all of the time, arguing with my girl every day over text, and on top of that I’ve got a side chick and I’m arguing with her at the same time. It was just too much, so I just let it all go. I cut off all of the fat.