Do anybody get a eerie feeling. People walk around aimlessly like drones with no sense of direction. Almost like they given up on life and they're waiting for death. I work in cheektowaga ny, and my prior criticism has turn into compassion.
These ppl are very spiritual and mentally broken, I used to make fun of their inability to use a credit card machine, a fax machine or even remove a staple without tearing the corner of their document. I would make fun of how they dress, which is them wearing old stained up clothes with holes.
But it's not funny anymore, I see something deeper and darker, these ppl are totally disfranchised and ready to die. Life has been so painful that they're just waiting for their dismise. No hopes, no dreams, nothing. Just a life of pain and sorrow. I watched a documentary about 1970s Harlem and a man that was older talked about how all he experience pain, how he did it all, seen it all and how the only thing left to do was die.
That's why it's important to live everyday with passion and strive no matter what, because if u don't figure it out, u simply will die, nobody is coming to save u and nobody care how unfair it is that u started with less then them.
America is a country about winning, it don't matter how u win...u just have to get the win, apparently by any means necessary.
The worst thing u can be is morally sound and honest. Being a good person that does the right thing is seen as a target in this society, and vultures will exploit your kindness for their own personal gain. The more nice things u do, the more you'll be seen as weak.
America truly is Babylon, a cesspool of sex, violence and manipulation. American capitalism is essentially about manipulation. It's all about who can seduce who out of their resources by playing complex mind games, preying upon ones emotional vulnerability.
Life broke my heart, reality broke my heart, the truth broke my heart .... being naive and docile is a blessing in disguise, sure u might be a fukking idiot and a peon BUT you'll be happy. The yin and yang, and imo happiness is more valuable than intelligence . Believe or not I once was an innocent bright eyed and bushy tailed kid, now im a paranoid cynical man that's jaded and consumed with a passion of revenge, that's enough for 10 Men
I notice society wicked ways are finally catching up to us. u can see the guilt that ppl have. They can't even look you in the eyes If you're a moral person, most immoral ppl will show u the utmost respect simply out of guilt. They can be "successful" with lots of money but the feelings of all the evil they've part taken in won't allow them to look you in the eyes. They'll lose the confidence they normally have around sheep that worship their money and status.
This society is about the weak and the strong, the predator and the prey. One of the things that hurt me bad internally is the conditions for black children. Sometimes I shed tears thinking about the obstacles they have waiting for them, on a society that was designed to kill them. Alotta of them don't have a chance and nobody to protect them from the vultures waiting to prey upon their flesh. They say mind your business and 'worry about yourself, I try and just cant' I think about the ills of others alot and feel powerless to save them, because I'm just a man with my own problems that can barely save myself.
Conclusion: I've came to the conclusion, the only thing to live for is god and entering his kingdom. The world is vile and I pray for the next world to bring the people that suffered in this world many blessings.
These ppl are very spiritual and mentally broken, I used to make fun of their inability to use a credit card machine, a fax machine or even remove a staple without tearing the corner of their document. I would make fun of how they dress, which is them wearing old stained up clothes with holes.
But it's not funny anymore, I see something deeper and darker, these ppl are totally disfranchised and ready to die. Life has been so painful that they're just waiting for their dismise. No hopes, no dreams, nothing. Just a life of pain and sorrow. I watched a documentary about 1970s Harlem and a man that was older talked about how all he experience pain, how he did it all, seen it all and how the only thing left to do was die.
That's why it's important to live everyday with passion and strive no matter what, because if u don't figure it out, u simply will die, nobody is coming to save u and nobody care how unfair it is that u started with less then them.
America is a country about winning, it don't matter how u win...u just have to get the win, apparently by any means necessary.
The worst thing u can be is morally sound and honest. Being a good person that does the right thing is seen as a target in this society, and vultures will exploit your kindness for their own personal gain. The more nice things u do, the more you'll be seen as weak.
America truly is Babylon, a cesspool of sex, violence and manipulation. American capitalism is essentially about manipulation. It's all about who can seduce who out of their resources by playing complex mind games, preying upon ones emotional vulnerability.
Life broke my heart, reality broke my heart, the truth broke my heart .... being naive and docile is a blessing in disguise, sure u might be a fukking idiot and a peon BUT you'll be happy. The yin and yang, and imo happiness is more valuable than intelligence . Believe or not I once was an innocent bright eyed and bushy tailed kid, now im a paranoid cynical man that's jaded and consumed with a passion of revenge, that's enough for 10 Men
I notice society wicked ways are finally catching up to us. u can see the guilt that ppl have. They can't even look you in the eyes If you're a moral person, most immoral ppl will show u the utmost respect simply out of guilt. They can be "successful" with lots of money but the feelings of all the evil they've part taken in won't allow them to look you in the eyes. They'll lose the confidence they normally have around sheep that worship their money and status.
This society is about the weak and the strong, the predator and the prey. One of the things that hurt me bad internally is the conditions for black children. Sometimes I shed tears thinking about the obstacles they have waiting for them, on a society that was designed to kill them. Alotta of them don't have a chance and nobody to protect them from the vultures waiting to prey upon their flesh. They say mind your business and 'worry about yourself, I try and just cant' I think about the ills of others alot and feel powerless to save them, because I'm just a man with my own problems that can barely save myself.
Conclusion: I've came to the conclusion, the only thing to live for is god and entering his kingdom. The world is vile and I pray for the next world to bring the people that suffered in this world many blessings.
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