Illuminatos
#OVOXO
My birthday was last week and I was just thinking to myself how wack it was that I was turning 21 and was still a virgin.
The crazy thing is I could get p*ssy if I wanted.
I'm not ugly at least I personally don't think I am. I've had girls throw it at me but I've either just been too awkward to act on it or I've been too picky and the girls weren't up to my ridiculous standards or weren't the ones I wanted at the time so I just straight up ignored them.
I've just been selfish as fukk my entire life.
I'm a late bloomer I guess but 2015 has been a funny year. I've really been transitioning from a dumb brat to a young adult. Finally got my first job, bank account, my own cash to spend and not having to depend on my parents. Working in Manhattan I met so many types of people, some cool ass people, lots of weirdos too
. At this point I'm so behind the curve sexually I think this is the best option as far as kicking things off. A lot of people think of this as some magical moment to enjoy with that special someone and shyt
but nah it's just a burden for me and it's been holding me back for a minute. I really believe doing this might be the catalyst for me finally curing myself of whatever insecurities that I might have within myself.
Stuff like that is supposed to come naturally through time and growth as a person with other people you care about but I've shut myself off from people too much for that to be an option now. And I don't want to wait too long. Maybe I'm being extreme right now or maybe it's because I haven't relieved myself in a week and I'm just horny af right now or maybe it's cause I'm on or maybe it's my dougie?
Seriously though I have some extra cash laying around and I think I'ma make this happen next week.








Seriously though I have some extra cash laying around and I think I'ma make this happen next week.
