The grim realization that you ain't sh;t

[Ghost Utmost]

I try to comfort myself with thoughts like "I take care of myself" but I thought I would be somebody in life.

Turning 40 in a few weeks. No kids. Divorced. Doing okay at my JO but not Benz level. More like Accord level.

Failed rapper. Failed artist. Failed writer.

When I was 15 I thought I was gonna save the world.

Have any of you siblings faced this cold fact of just being a regular schlub eeking out an existence instead of the important person you imagined?

Any of you not even imagine yourselves to be "somebody" and always knew you were just a peon?

 

[TheBeigeBomber]

theres 8 billion people on this earth. chances are you aint gonna be shyt. unless you post on the coli where you make 6 figures, smash dimes every other night, have all the IT certs and started your own business from nothing. i forgot about PAWGs too

 

[Heafcliffe]

Sounds like a small bout of depression you have here, brehdren. Hope you are maintaining.

I feel ya. When I was unemployed, I shared these feelings. My support system held me together when I felt going postal or disappearing into Bolivian were options.

Squeezing out the most minute portion of motivation was the key. Also, realizing that someone would love to be in your position no matter how bad you think things are.

"Failures" are foundations for successes.

You'll be fine.

 

[Ghost Utmost]

I knew the cert having dime smashing Coli Brehs would not suffer from this.

 

[MikelArteta]

Your alive your healthy, your employed with a roof over your head, you can travel and eat any type of food you want .

Your better off than like 80 percent of the world.

 

[010101]

most poppin motherfukker on earth finna be dirt one day just like the rest of us

chill out b


z z z z z Z

 

[Microfracture]

theres 8 billion people on this earth. chances are you aint gonna be shyt. unless you post on the coli where you make 6 figures, smash dimes every other night, have all the IT certs and started your own business from nothing. i forgot about PAWGs too

It's the life isn't it?

 

[BujuBoombastic]

Why should you worry about what other people might think of you? Worry about what makes you happy in this world. fukk what other people say. You're good triple og.

You're alive and well. Most people don't have a job or a roof over their heads. Be grateful. You can still live your dreams. Age is noting but a number.

 

[Mowgli]

It's not grim it's actually liberating.

But if you are fighting one way or the other it sucKs.

After you lose the battle though?

 

[tater]

I've been feeling like this too, but I'm 25. I feel like life is pointless. I'm just trudging along, for what reason idk. Seriously I think why even stay alive, but I don't want my family to suffer my absence. Oh well...

 

[Ghost Utmost]

I've been feeling like this too, but I'm 25. I feel like life is pointless. I'm just trudging along, for what reason idk. Seriously I think why even stay alive, but I don't want my family to suffer my absence. Oh well...

I will say this Breh: I have exactly the things I want waiting on me when I get home. I got my shows on deck, my favorite beers, my current art projects. I actually enjoy the fukc out of my free time.

I have a gf that I only see Fri Sat and Sun for my human contact and wild sex needs.

I want to continue living for like another 1000 years, I just thought I'd be .. important? .. by now.

So buck up Breh Man. You can be a happy "nobody".

 

[010101]

I'm bout to stop being a drugged out manwhore in the city of babylon

and move back to my families home the island of bim

most likely that'll be the future pattern of my life island hoping living that simple life

just burning spliffs and stroking off in some tropical nana

I'm getting to that age where to really live in the city in the way you wanna you better get a 9to5 and I ain't bout that life mane


the little get fly get high routine is tiring these city bytches all after the same rapper/ball player big $$$$$$ nikkas

imma be a fly ass beach bum and catch these hoes on vacation when all they looking for is some new exotic pp

I got the formula


x x x x x X

 

[010101]

fukk it brehs let's all be elegant dirtbags

imagine a fukking coli commune down in one of the islands


just send me the $$$$$$ so I can get it started





$ $ $ $ $ $

 

[unit321]

I try to comfort myself with thoughts like "I take care of myself" but I thought I would be somebody in life.
Turning 40 in a few weeks. No kids. Divorced. Doing okay at my JO but not Benz level. More like Accord level.
Failed rapper. Failed artist. Failed writer.
When I was 15 I thought I was gonna save the world.
Have any of you siblings faced this cold fact of just being a regular schlub eeking out an existence instead of the important person you imagined?
Any of you not even imagine yourselves to be "somebody" and always knew you were just a peon?

I thought I was going to be a somebody in high school. I graduated top in my class. But in college, I knew there were things I wasn't going to be able to achieve, so I strove towards things that were doable with what I had.
I'm not at Benz level either. Probably Accord EX level but not Accord DX.

 

[newworldafro]

You're living on a rock floating through infinite space breh.
The fact that you can wake up and experience the boundaries of the planet as a sentient being is 50% of the battle. The rest is doing your best for yourself and others.

Crash a wedding and find a good single lady. Get married and build off of that.

Otherwise, have drink on me