The Man Who Charged Himself With Murder (G. Dep): NY Mag Article (Long But Good Read)

[Stress Welker]

Why Trevell Coleman Charged Himself With Murder -- New York Magazine

Late on the night of December 15, 2010, Trevell Coleman stepped out of the subway station at East 116th Street. The evening was bitterly cold, down to almost 20 degrees. He wore a North Face parka and a scarf wrapped around his head like a hoodie. He’d told nobody where he was going—not his mother, not his friends, not his relatives—because he knew they’d try to stop him.

With his hands jammed into his pockets, he began walking up Lexington Avenue toward East 119th Street. For years, he had been contending with flashbacks, nightmares, and intense feelings of guilt. The only way to stop them, he now thought, would be to talk to the police. And at this point, what did he have to lose? He was 36 years old and had almost nothing—no job, no money, and no apartment of his own.

All he really had was a rap moniker—“G. Dep”—left over from his days as a member of Puff Daddy’s Bad Boy crew. Earlier that night, he had been playing the role of G. Dep once again, taping a public-access TV show in the back seat of a car. It was a far cry from 2001, when he’d been in regular rotation on MTV with “Let’s Get It,” the video that turned the Harlem Shake into a dance craze.

 

[Heretic]

Damn. Guilt is a muthafukka. Thats why all these people that play hard need to think about that shyt. It's one thing to see someone die on tv, but to be responsible directly for it can do strange things toba person.

 

[infamous212]

Decent read, nothing that I never heard. Dep is/was one of my favorite rappers. Made some dope ass music imo

 

[Y.K.]

smh

 

[Dro_Pesci]

This is some real shyt man. Gdep had potential to b a lot more then he was but that murder tore his soul up.

Glad he confessed to try to take back control over his life

 

[re'up]

It's a good article, I like NY Magazine, they did an ill story on a drug dealer a few years ago, I still read that, here and there. I don't feel that badly for Dep though, dude was a fiend, an addict, three time loser....who was spiraling for years, before the 2010 confession. I think his mental imbalance and drug addiction did it to him, the guilt was just a by product of the drugs, I'd guess he's not the smartest guy anyway, dude always seemed a little off. I don't want to make light of a mans death, or the murderers fate, but this was just some weak shyt. Couldn't handle the drugs, is what it was, in my opinion.

 

[tirademode]

Great read . I mean , you listen every day to rappers saying they'll kill someone and think nothing of it . Well this guy shot someone for real and thought a lot of it . To point of it literally driving him insane .

Call him stupid , but its interesting to see how his conscience guided him .

 

[Pazzy]

that's some real shyt.

 

[mortuus est]

He had told nobody about the shooting, but even after he’d left East Harlem, there were moments when memories of what he’d done would bubble up. He would be at the movies, a tub of popcorn on his lap, watching the screen, when one character would pull out a pistol and shoot somebody—and suddenly he was right back in 1993, on Park and 114th. When he was younger, he’d identify with the perpetrator on the screen—“I shot someone, too,” he’d say to himself—but as he got older, he found himself empathizing with the victim. In the middle of the movie, he’d start wondering if the man he had shot at was still alive—and then he’d question whether he even deserved to be in a theater at all, rather than in prison. The lights would go back on, everyone would file out, and he’d leave with no memory of the movie he’d just seen.

 

[nineteeneightysix]

G Dep was mentally weak...

In my line of work, I have put a few people in jeopardy, but those are secrets I will take to the grave, because my instinct for self preservation is stronger than any desire for some sense morality or ethics...

I honestly believe I have the personality to be an assassin for the CIA or some secret government agency...

It's all in the way you think, and in what you believe...

What G Dep did was some weak man stunt, dude, you have a family and seeds to support, how you gon deprive them of a better a chance in life, because you to busy guilt tripping yourself over something you did moons ago...?

G Dep pulled some DeAngelo Barksdale weak brother sh*t...

 

[tirademode]

*waits for the long line of e-thugs to enter and explain the plethora of bodies they've caught with no empathy*

 

[Dro_Pesci]

It's a good article, I like NY Magazine, they did an ill story on a drug dealer a few years ago, I still read that, here and there. I don't feel that badly for Dep though, dude was a fiend, an addict, three time loser....who was spiraling for years, before the 2010 confession. I think his mental imbalance and drug addiction did it to him, the guilt was just a by product of the drugs, I'd guess he's not the smartest guy anyway, dude always seemed a little off. I don't want to make light of a mans death, or the murderers fate, but this was just some weak shyt. Couldn't handle the drugs, is what it was, in my opinion.

How can you say he always seemed a little off if guilt drove him to do hard drugs? If you didn't know him before 93 I don't think Ur opinion is accurate

He killed an innocent man he didn't even know for absolutely no reason at all. It wasn't like it was some beef shyt it was a stick up gone wrong. That shyt would fukk with any normal mafukka I don't care how hard body nikkas wanna act

 

[nineteeneightysix]

*waits for the long line of e-thugs to enter and explain the plethora of bodies they've caught with no empathy*

It's not about not having empathy...

It's about being strong enough to live with the guilt...

When some people make mistakes, they let the guilt eat them up, or should I say they are genetically predisposed to not be able to deal with stressors...

Other people can commit a murder, and sure they feel guilt, but at the same time they understand a life sentence in jail doesn't really benefit anyone, so they will use their talents to better themselves, and spend a life time paying for their sins by being a positive example in their communities...

The story of Moses, in the Bible, is a great example...Dude committed murder...He felt guilty, and so he ran away...But then in his exile, he transformed himself into a great leader...By doing this, he saved his people from oppression...

It has nothing to do with boasting about being super tough...

Some people are more predisposed to think logically when faced with a problem, other have the predisposition to react based on their emotions...

 

[Obtain Knowledge]

Wow, this is a really interesting read. Thanks for the link.

 

[Soundbwoy]

I couldn't stop reading hopefully he gets released and be in his kids life, at the end of the day he did the right thing