You sound alexithymic coates. That or you've turned into a full blown caannt. Get it checked out before you fall into deep depression.
What are you studying?
Also what the hell is a penfield?
Think it's a mixture of both. But I sort of revel in being a c*nt.
It's like, i enjoy heightened emotions, i will actively seek something like a tearful goodbye, because the emotions make me feel so alive
I did that with my ex, i could have just ended it by not talking to her, but i had to go round and shed some tears, make a speech and say goodbye, i got really emotional, then as soon as i stepped out the door i was stone faced, wasn't really arsed. It's not nice actually, knowing you can be like that
I didn't feel anything like love for her though so i don't know if it's that or what.
Anyway, yeah so i'm just back in college, finally going to uni next year to do journalism, bit late in the day but i'm going to make you proud m8
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