murksiderock
Superstar
First of all, I'm already hard on myself, because there is no excuse for me not getting tested in nearly a decade, other than, I haven't prioritized it...
This is gonna be at least a yearly thing for me now, and I'm also getting my first physical as an adult tomorrow. In general, I've finally begun to take my health seriously, 4 years out for 40...
Just to answer an unasked question:
I'm not getting this test because I feel something is wrong with me. There's no physical change in me and I feel fine, I look fine. I gotta get scheduled for a sleep apnea study as well, thats what really has me shook, is that I think something is wrong with me there.
I thought about going to get tested a handful of times over the last 2 years, but as I stated, it wasn't a priority, so I never did. That's quite embarrassing, given I don't use condoms and I've slept with quite a few women in the last 9 years.
One woman I slept with a couple months ago, told me after we had sex, as in like, over a month later, that she bumps up on her coochie from time to time, but it comes and goes. I was pissed because I wouldn't have slept with her had she told me this prior---->and no, when we slept together, she had no bumps, discoloration, or anything that would indicate she has something.
She said she got tested 6 years ago and somebody told her she has herpes, but when she got tested two years after that, she was told it was a false positive, then tested after that, and it was negative for herpes. She hasn't been tested herself in over 3 years and she has avoided going to really see what the issue with those intermittent bumps are.
For my part, I irresponsibly haven't been tested in even longer, so I can't shyt on her. But what I did do, in an effort to continue evolving as a more responsible man, I haven't slept with her or anyone else since.
So she also helped initiate this process for me mentally, but I've already been contemplating it for awhile
Lastly, we have a group of virtuous, self-righteous posters here, so to those people. I'm very secure in who I am and where I'm going, and who I'm becoming. I've long said that I share aspects of my life on here, because this board is a diary for me, and also, there is nothing I'm really ashamed of. Every L is a learning experience, and one thing my history shows, is that a brother LEARNS. So hopefully thru some of my shared experiences, other guys who are less vocal, but have struggled in similar ways, can be inspired to meet their challenges head on.
So in closing, I fully expect to come back healthy on the STD test, or if I have something, its one of those things that goes away after you take some pills for a few days. 9 years, I've had no physical or visual issues with my meat, nor have I felt sick in that sense. But I am glad I'm going to get it, a positive step forward as I continue to grow!
This is gonna be at least a yearly thing for me now, and I'm also getting my first physical as an adult tomorrow. In general, I've finally begun to take my health seriously, 4 years out for 40...
Just to answer an unasked question:
I'm not getting this test because I feel something is wrong with me. There's no physical change in me and I feel fine, I look fine. I gotta get scheduled for a sleep apnea study as well, thats what really has me shook, is that I think something is wrong with me there.
I thought about going to get tested a handful of times over the last 2 years, but as I stated, it wasn't a priority, so I never did. That's quite embarrassing, given I don't use condoms and I've slept with quite a few women in the last 9 years.
One woman I slept with a couple months ago, told me after we had sex, as in like, over a month later, that she bumps up on her coochie from time to time, but it comes and goes. I was pissed because I wouldn't have slept with her had she told me this prior---->and no, when we slept together, she had no bumps, discoloration, or anything that would indicate she has something.
She said she got tested 6 years ago and somebody told her she has herpes, but when she got tested two years after that, she was told it was a false positive, then tested after that, and it was negative for herpes. She hasn't been tested herself in over 3 years and she has avoided going to really see what the issue with those intermittent bumps are.
For my part, I irresponsibly haven't been tested in even longer, so I can't shyt on her. But what I did do, in an effort to continue evolving as a more responsible man, I haven't slept with her or anyone else since.
So she also helped initiate this process for me mentally, but I've already been contemplating it for awhile
Lastly, we have a group of virtuous, self-righteous posters here, so to those people. I'm very secure in who I am and where I'm going, and who I'm becoming. I've long said that I share aspects of my life on here, because this board is a diary for me, and also, there is nothing I'm really ashamed of. Every L is a learning experience, and one thing my history shows, is that a brother LEARNS. So hopefully thru some of my shared experiences, other guys who are less vocal, but have struggled in similar ways, can be inspired to meet their challenges head on.
So in closing, I fully expect to come back healthy on the STD test, or if I have something, its one of those things that goes away after you take some pills for a few days. 9 years, I've had no physical or visual issues with my meat, nor have I felt sick in that sense. But I am glad I'm going to get it, a positive step forward as I continue to grow!
FOR THE LOVE OF ALL THINGS RIGHTEOUS..HAAALLLPPPPP