Young/Nacho\Drawz
...come on let's picture the possibility...
I'm just now reading this for the first time unedited. Maybe someone can confirm if it's legit. Alot more is revealed to the point where you may look at the shooting and rape in a different light.
Here's a video discussing the interview.
Here is the edited version: Tupac Interviews
Here's a video discussing the interview.
How do you feel after everything you¹ve been through these past few weeks?
Well, the first two days [after the shooting] I had to go through what
life is like when you¹ve been smoking weed for as long as I have and then
you stop. Emotionally, it was like I didn¹t know myself. I was sitting in
a room, like there was two people in the room, evil and good. That was the
hardest part. After the first two days, the weed was out of me. I made up
my mind I wasn¹t going to smoke any more. That¹s when I started finding a
little peace in myself and I started figuring out what was going on. Then
every day I started doing like a thousand pushups for myself and reading.
I was reading whole books in one day, and writing, and that was putting me
in a peace of mind. Then I started seeing my situation and what got me
here. Even though I¹m innocent of the charge they gave me, I¹m not
innocent in terms of the way I was acting.
Could you tell me specifically what you mean?
I mean I¹m just as guilty for not doing nothing as I am for doing things,
you know what I¹m saying? Not with this case, but just in my life, my
career. I feel like I had a job to do and I never showed up. I was coming
late, if I did show up. I was so scared of this responsibility that I was
supposed to hold, that I was running away from it. But what I see now is
that whether I show up for work or not, the evil forces are going to be at
me. There¹s going to be people that still know what I¹m capable of doing,
and they want to see me fall. They¹re going to come 100 percent, so if I
don¹t be 100 percent pure-hearted, I¹m going to lose. And that¹s why I¹m
losing.
The writer bell hooks says you have a legacy that most rappers don¹t. You
can listen to an Ice-T or an Ice Cube, but they don¹t connect to the
political movement like you do. Is that what you¹re talking about?
Yes. I never was a gangster rapper. When I got in here, all the prisoners
was like ³fukk that gangsta rapper.² I¹m not a gangsta rapper. I rap about
things that was really happening to me. I got shot five times, you know
what I¹m saying? People was trying to kill me. It was really real like
that. But, as far as the legacy, I don¹t see myself being special, I just
see myself having more responsibilities than the next man does. My job is
not from nine to five, it¹s 24-7. People look to me to do things for them,
look to me to have answers. I wasn¹t having them because my brain was half
dead from smoking so much weed. I was trying to numb myself out.
I¹m not trying to tell everybody put down the weed. Some people can smoke
weed; I couldn¹t. I was totally gone. It was like recovery for me when I
got in here, like being in my own 12-step program. I had to face my own
demons; I had to face everything about myself that I didn¹t like. Now I
love myself again. I felt like I was in jail when I was out of here. I¹d
be in my hotel room, smoking too much weed, drinking, going to clubs, just
being numb. That was being in jail to me. I wasn¹t happy at all on the
streets. Nobody could say they saw me happy.
When I spoke to you a year ago, you said that if you ended up in jail,
³your spirit would die.² You sound like you¹re saying the opposite now.
Because that was the addict speaking. The addict knew if I went to jail,
then it couldn¹t live. The addict in Tupac is dead. The excuse-maker in
Tupac is dead. The irresponsible person in Tupac is dead. The vengeful
Tupac is dead. The Tupac that would stand by and let dishonorable things
happen is dead. God let me live for me to do something extremely
extraordinary, you know what I¹m saying? and that¹s what I have to do. I
can¹t slack off. Even if they give me the maximum sentence, that¹s still
my job.
Can you take us back to that night at Quad Studios?
The night of the shooting? Sure.
Try to tell us everything that was going through your head, as someone
who¹s lived through being shot.
Okay. Ron-G is a DJ out here in New York. He¹s like, ³Pac, I want you to
come to my house and lay this rap down for my tapes. You¹ll be
representing woop-de-woop.² I said, ³All right, I¹ll come for free. I¹ll
be down there.² So I went to his house, me and my homeboy Stretch.
You went up to the Polo Grounds?
me, Stretch, and a couple other homeboys. After I laid the song, Then I
got a page from this guy Jimmy telling me he wanted me to rap on Little
Shaun¹s record. He¹s Little Shaun¹s manager, and he¹d been asking me for a
while to rap on this record because it¹s going to be a song with me and
Notorious B.I.G. on Bad Boy Records and all this. He said ³we need you.²
Now this guy I was going to charge, because I had no connections with him.
I could see that they was just using me‹out of the blue they wanted me to
do this song. So, I said, ³All right, you give me seven Gs and I¹ll do the
song.² So He said, ³All right, I¹ve got the money. Come.² When I got
finished with Ron-G Jimmy paged, like, ³You¹re on your way?² I said, ³Yes,
I¹m on my way.² I stopped off to get some weed, smoked the weed, and he
paged me again. ³Where you at? Where you at? Where you at? Why you ain¹t
coming?² I¹m like, ³I¹m coming, Man, I¹m on my way, hold on.² I wasn¹t
thinking, Why they want me here so bad?
We got lost looking for the studio in Manhattan. And I called him like,
³Where the hell is the studio?² Jimmy said, ³Where you at?² I told him
where we were at, which is right around the corner. He was like, ³How long
is it going to take you?² I was like, ³Five minutes. We¹ll be there in
five minutes.²
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Read the rest here: Long Ass 2pac Interview, interesting....Well, the first two days [after the shooting] I had to go through what
life is like when you¹ve been smoking weed for as long as I have and then
you stop. Emotionally, it was like I didn¹t know myself. I was sitting in
a room, like there was two people in the room, evil and good. That was the
hardest part. After the first two days, the weed was out of me. I made up
my mind I wasn¹t going to smoke any more. That¹s when I started finding a
little peace in myself and I started figuring out what was going on. Then
every day I started doing like a thousand pushups for myself and reading.
I was reading whole books in one day, and writing, and that was putting me
in a peace of mind. Then I started seeing my situation and what got me
here. Even though I¹m innocent of the charge they gave me, I¹m not
innocent in terms of the way I was acting.
Could you tell me specifically what you mean?
I mean I¹m just as guilty for not doing nothing as I am for doing things,
you know what I¹m saying? Not with this case, but just in my life, my
career. I feel like I had a job to do and I never showed up. I was coming
late, if I did show up. I was so scared of this responsibility that I was
supposed to hold, that I was running away from it. But what I see now is
that whether I show up for work or not, the evil forces are going to be at
me. There¹s going to be people that still know what I¹m capable of doing,
and they want to see me fall. They¹re going to come 100 percent, so if I
don¹t be 100 percent pure-hearted, I¹m going to lose. And that¹s why I¹m
losing.
The writer bell hooks says you have a legacy that most rappers don¹t. You
can listen to an Ice-T or an Ice Cube, but they don¹t connect to the
political movement like you do. Is that what you¹re talking about?
Yes. I never was a gangster rapper. When I got in here, all the prisoners
was like ³fukk that gangsta rapper.² I¹m not a gangsta rapper. I rap about
things that was really happening to me. I got shot five times, you know
what I¹m saying? People was trying to kill me. It was really real like
that. But, as far as the legacy, I don¹t see myself being special, I just
see myself having more responsibilities than the next man does. My job is
not from nine to five, it¹s 24-7. People look to me to do things for them,
look to me to have answers. I wasn¹t having them because my brain was half
dead from smoking so much weed. I was trying to numb myself out.
I¹m not trying to tell everybody put down the weed. Some people can smoke
weed; I couldn¹t. I was totally gone. It was like recovery for me when I
got in here, like being in my own 12-step program. I had to face my own
demons; I had to face everything about myself that I didn¹t like. Now I
love myself again. I felt like I was in jail when I was out of here. I¹d
be in my hotel room, smoking too much weed, drinking, going to clubs, just
being numb. That was being in jail to me. I wasn¹t happy at all on the
streets. Nobody could say they saw me happy.
When I spoke to you a year ago, you said that if you ended up in jail,
³your spirit would die.² You sound like you¹re saying the opposite now.
Because that was the addict speaking. The addict knew if I went to jail,
then it couldn¹t live. The addict in Tupac is dead. The excuse-maker in
Tupac is dead. The irresponsible person in Tupac is dead. The vengeful
Tupac is dead. The Tupac that would stand by and let dishonorable things
happen is dead. God let me live for me to do something extremely
extraordinary, you know what I¹m saying? and that¹s what I have to do. I
can¹t slack off. Even if they give me the maximum sentence, that¹s still
my job.
Can you take us back to that night at Quad Studios?
The night of the shooting? Sure.
Try to tell us everything that was going through your head, as someone
who¹s lived through being shot.
Okay. Ron-G is a DJ out here in New York. He¹s like, ³Pac, I want you to
come to my house and lay this rap down for my tapes. You¹ll be
representing woop-de-woop.² I said, ³All right, I¹ll come for free. I¹ll
be down there.² So I went to his house, me and my homeboy Stretch.
You went up to the Polo Grounds?
me, Stretch, and a couple other homeboys. After I laid the song, Then I
got a page from this guy Jimmy telling me he wanted me to rap on Little
Shaun¹s record. He¹s Little Shaun¹s manager, and he¹d been asking me for a
while to rap on this record because it¹s going to be a song with me and
Notorious B.I.G. on Bad Boy Records and all this. He said ³we need you.²
Now this guy I was going to charge, because I had no connections with him.
I could see that they was just using me‹out of the blue they wanted me to
do this song. So, I said, ³All right, you give me seven Gs and I¹ll do the
song.² So He said, ³All right, I¹ve got the money. Come.² When I got
finished with Ron-G Jimmy paged, like, ³You¹re on your way?² I said, ³Yes,
I¹m on my way.² I stopped off to get some weed, smoked the weed, and he
paged me again. ³Where you at? Where you at? Where you at? Why you ain¹t
coming?² I¹m like, ³I¹m coming, Man, I¹m on my way, hold on.² I wasn¹t
thinking, Why they want me here so bad?
We got lost looking for the studio in Manhattan. And I called him like,
³Where the hell is the studio?² Jimmy said, ³Where you at?² I told him
where we were at, which is right around the corner. He was like, ³How long
is it going to take you?² I was like, ³Five minutes. We¹ll be there in
five minutes.²
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Here is the edited version: Tupac Interviews
I may have to read that guys books
it's from that Vibe issue
kevin powell
what da hell are u talking bout 
