I was very cool with the oldest. Good heart dude, played center in HS. With him being tall, he always got picked on and targeted. Dude had so many fights, he soon became a beast with his hands. Never knew him to be in no deep street shyt. Anyhow I ended up joining the military and we didnt speak as much as before. Years later he gets into a shootout with a guy doing a drive by with his ex in the car. Ex girlfriend gets hit and dies. Multiple conflicting stories on what actually happened. But He gets sent Angola State Pen. Years late, we connect and chop it up on Facebook, he was doing well. I sent him a few dollars. He was cooling, all of sudden he gets killed in there. Some said the guards killed him. Crazy shyt. Years later, his little brother get killed at the corner store we use to walk to and post up at.
This weekend I was djing a 40th bday party. Early in my set I saw my homeboys aunt, went over to speak and was shocked to see his mom too. She looked the same from back in the day. But she has this sadness in her eyes. To be expected I guess.
I notice she was on the floor more than anyone. No shame, twerking, bending over and all. Some of the young girls were pointing and laughing... Then I remembered, she use to be in the clubs with us when I was in High school. Im talking we was 16/17 years old. And it didnt bother her or her son. I couldn't imagine partying with a parent. Honestly his mom was probably in her mid 30s back then so...
Then I starting thinking about my homeboys. Honestly, a big part of me wanted blame her. Then I kind of realize she never seemed to be all there. The whole thing made me about how many of our women are out here trying to raise children that aren't really all their or halfway mature. Then it hit me, most of these children dont stand a chance out here. So many families and household with no real wisdom or guidance around. Even the few men around be ex street dudes that dropped out of High school. Best case just a quiet old man, just surviving and staying out the way. Im not putting it on single mothers as usual, theres just way too many people who shouldn't be having kids, that women and men.
Hurts to know I dont know how we can solve it.
This weekend I was djing a 40th bday party. Early in my set I saw my homeboys aunt, went over to speak and was shocked to see his mom too. She looked the same from back in the day. But she has this sadness in her eyes. To be expected I guess.
I notice she was on the floor more than anyone. No shame, twerking, bending over and all. Some of the young girls were pointing and laughing... Then I remembered, she use to be in the clubs with us when I was in High school. Im talking we was 16/17 years old. And it didnt bother her or her son. I couldn't imagine partying with a parent. Honestly his mom was probably in her mid 30s back then so...
Then I starting thinking about my homeboys. Honestly, a big part of me wanted blame her. Then I kind of realize she never seemed to be all there. The whole thing made me about how many of our women are out here trying to raise children that aren't really all their or halfway mature. Then it hit me, most of these children dont stand a chance out here. So many families and household with no real wisdom or guidance around. Even the few men around be ex street dudes that dropped out of High school. Best case just a quiet old man, just surviving and staying out the way. Im not putting it on single mothers as usual, theres just way too many people who shouldn't be having kids, that women and men.
Hurts to know I dont know how we can solve it.
one day just bawling listening to gospel that was her only child. Pops gives me money that I be like 
im cool but he insists cuz “you were my boys friend back in the day” shyt be super sad.
