Hey brehs,
So I've been in a soul searching space in my life for a while now. I have a lot of questions about just existing in this world and the biggest question that always bothered me was why do we have to suffer?
When pondering this thought, I automatically go back to my childhood. I noticed how as a child I was happy for no other reasons but to be happy. Just coming home after school to watch a new episode of Dragon ball z was bliss for me. I didn't worry about the past and I didn't worry about the future. I had no desires, expectations, aspirations, secrets or shame. When I saw people I took them for face value and never looked for wrong in them. I trusted without worry and gave love without expectation. I didn't have this need for separation and I didn't feel misunderstood. I didn't feel the need to make fun of people or judge them.
But it seems as I've grown older and started to experience suffering, that happiness has become a old friend that stops by occasionally instead of that ever present loved one that never has forsaken me. What happens to us along the way, that makes us unhappy?
Is it desire? Is it fear? Is it the inability to let go of earthly attachments? Is it the self imposed separation that we force upon ourselves? Or is it simply that deep down we like being miserable?
And the saddest irony of it all it seems that we all want to be accepted, loved and understood but because we fear what others may do to us or have done to us we put up this wall to protect our egos but that very wall we build insures we'll never know that child like happiness again.
At my core I'm a good hearted man but as I observe the suffering around me, I notice it has a corrupting influence on me. Suffering also begets more suffering. Why do we hurt other people when we ourselves are hurt? Why are we hypocrites? Why do we do to others what we;ll hate to have done to us? Why are we scared to forgive and understand?
So brehs sorry for the rambling but the core point of this thread is "What is the root of human suffering? "
So I've been in a soul searching space in my life for a while now. I have a lot of questions about just existing in this world and the biggest question that always bothered me was why do we have to suffer?
When pondering this thought, I automatically go back to my childhood. I noticed how as a child I was happy for no other reasons but to be happy. Just coming home after school to watch a new episode of Dragon ball z was bliss for me. I didn't worry about the past and I didn't worry about the future. I had no desires, expectations, aspirations, secrets or shame. When I saw people I took them for face value and never looked for wrong in them. I trusted without worry and gave love without expectation. I didn't have this need for separation and I didn't feel misunderstood. I didn't feel the need to make fun of people or judge them.
But it seems as I've grown older and started to experience suffering, that happiness has become a old friend that stops by occasionally instead of that ever present loved one that never has forsaken me. What happens to us along the way, that makes us unhappy?
Is it desire? Is it fear? Is it the inability to let go of earthly attachments? Is it the self imposed separation that we force upon ourselves? Or is it simply that deep down we like being miserable?
And the saddest irony of it all it seems that we all want to be accepted, loved and understood but because we fear what others may do to us or have done to us we put up this wall to protect our egos but that very wall we build insures we'll never know that child like happiness again.
At my core I'm a good hearted man but as I observe the suffering around me, I notice it has a corrupting influence on me. Suffering also begets more suffering. Why do we hurt other people when we ourselves are hurt? Why are we hypocrites? Why do we do to others what we;ll hate to have done to us? Why are we scared to forgive and understand?
So brehs sorry for the rambling but the core point of this thread is "What is the root of human suffering? "
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