idk if this is going to help but dude think about all of the shyt you're going to miss if you go through with this your going to miss alot of tight ass music alot tight ass movies coming out in the next few years. JUST THINK about moments you've wished for that you'll miss if you try to take your life. find something to motivate you it doesn't have to be a big thing but small find something to make life worth living.

at the thought of OP posting something so personal in TLR but yall can surprise me sometimes 