TheBeigeBomber
#Fukkery
I mean not just tripping with your friends. Im talking high dose in a dark room with eyes closed.
My god I had my first heavy trip on shrooms a few weeks ago. Goddam was I not prepared for it at all. They say "you get out of the universe what you put in". Well I got the shyt kicked out me by the magic mushroom. Got completely ripped from this reality violently. There was no easing into it. I got shown that this whole reality we are in right now is an illusion. I was EVERYONE and EVERYTHING. There was NO TIME. Now imagine having every belief system you ever had about this life for 19 years completely tore apart in front of your face. Nothing can prepare you for it I dont give a fukk who you are. The fear and panic was like nothing I ever felt before tbh. And im stuck in this space where time did not exist so from my viewpoint there was absolutely no end in sight. I remember trying to come back to this reality and telling myself you are just tripping it will be over soon. But every time I looked at the time on my ipod the numbers made ZERO sense. Its hard to explain being in a place where time just does not exist. Ive got my ego desperately trying to cling on to any grasp of this reality. But fighting it just made it worse. Eventually I just accepted my fate and let this shyt happen you know. Id tried everything else. Only then did the trip get more pleasant and I started coming down. I had the classic BAD TRIP and honestly im very happy it happened.
The afterglow is insane. Like I inderstood what your third eye being open meant now. Cus it was wide open. I was seeing synchronicities EVERYWHERE. Like everything started making sense. This trip completely changed my life. Like i was a negative motherfukker with some deep problems. I still have my problems but im much better equipped to deal with them now. The trip showed me what I need to do. Honestly Ive really gotten into Buddhism again properly and meditation.
I cant really speak to anybody about this tho. Just not around any spirituality at all. I love my friends and I love everyone now but they just wouldnt understand what the fukk I was talking about. I have no interest in fighting or robbing anymore. Karma is very fukkign real. Thats probably why the mushrooms kicked my ass so bad. When you raised in an environment where ego is king, ignorance and violence is everywhere around you. Its very easy to get caught up in that lifestlye especially when nobody around you is teaching you anything worthwhile.
Ive had a few low dose mushrooms trips that have been dope and easy going. Especially mixed with weed. I dont feel like a need a HEAVY trip tho for a while. Im happy just meditating and trying to be a better person right now.
Im a reformed hood whos trying to reach enlightenment so I can end the reincarnation cycle. I think im gonna do it this time brehs.
My god I had my first heavy trip on shrooms a few weeks ago. Goddam was I not prepared for it at all. They say "you get out of the universe what you put in". Well I got the shyt kicked out me by the magic mushroom. Got completely ripped from this reality violently. There was no easing into it. I got shown that this whole reality we are in right now is an illusion. I was EVERYONE and EVERYTHING. There was NO TIME. Now imagine having every belief system you ever had about this life for 19 years completely tore apart in front of your face. Nothing can prepare you for it I dont give a fukk who you are. The fear and panic was like nothing I ever felt before tbh. And im stuck in this space where time did not exist so from my viewpoint there was absolutely no end in sight. I remember trying to come back to this reality and telling myself you are just tripping it will be over soon. But every time I looked at the time on my ipod the numbers made ZERO sense. Its hard to explain being in a place where time just does not exist. Ive got my ego desperately trying to cling on to any grasp of this reality. But fighting it just made it worse. Eventually I just accepted my fate and let this shyt happen you know. Id tried everything else. Only then did the trip get more pleasant and I started coming down. I had the classic BAD TRIP and honestly im very happy it happened.
The afterglow is insane. Like I inderstood what your third eye being open meant now. Cus it was wide open. I was seeing synchronicities EVERYWHERE. Like everything started making sense. This trip completely changed my life. Like i was a negative motherfukker with some deep problems. I still have my problems but im much better equipped to deal with them now. The trip showed me what I need to do. Honestly Ive really gotten into Buddhism again properly and meditation.
I cant really speak to anybody about this tho. Just not around any spirituality at all. I love my friends and I love everyone now but they just wouldnt understand what the fukk I was talking about. I have no interest in fighting or robbing anymore. Karma is very fukkign real. Thats probably why the mushrooms kicked my ass so bad. When you raised in an environment where ego is king, ignorance and violence is everywhere around you. Its very easy to get caught up in that lifestlye especially when nobody around you is teaching you anything worthwhile.
Ive had a few low dose mushrooms trips that have been dope and easy going. Especially mixed with weed. I dont feel like a need a HEAVY trip tho for a while. Im happy just meditating and trying to be a better person right now.
Im a reformed hood whos trying to reach enlightenment so I can end the reincarnation cycle. I think im gonna do it this time brehs.
