Damn breh
I'm okay man. I was playing soccer at a high level so I was and am in great shape. That saved my ass. I also wasn't sitting on my ass. I was on my shyt and on some shyt. I dunno, if was more clear headed through it I'd have more to show for it.
I get the impression you think you're missing out on some drug filled orgy. You are, lol, but it's not glamorous the day after. I was so high once I thought I was going to die. I used to get so high my dikk didn't work.
One time I woke up in a bath tub. I had no idea how I got there or where any of my shyt was. I thought someone harvested my organs. I'd be high and not eat for days. I'm 5'10 150-55. Id be at like 142 in three days. So imagine what I looked like after no water or food for three days.
I'd have to take drugs to balance me out so I could get through the day. I'd take an upper to get high. Then a downer to mellow out. Something to stay focused too. More drugs to sleep.
Sonetimes I'd try to eat food while on drugs and I'd vomit. But if I did drugs I felt like I ate a meal. Real drug use ain't cool man. It's destructive and disgusting. I wasn't even addicted. I was just experimenting. Luckily I have god like will power. Most people can't stop.