20. Last September I started a good college, was financially and shyt. Passing tests
Being stupid what do I do? Start Benzos
1) Dropped out of college
2) Went from $6000 in cash to -$7000 due to expensive drug use and crazy Xanax decisions I.E Giving someone my Macbook whilst on pills.
3) Been to A&E about 8 times for the following.
-Fell over and cut my face, got 11 stitches
-Fell over onto back of head, got 10 staples on head
-Fell over onto hand and ripped thumb apart. Got picked up walking the street with my thumb in pieces by the cops who took me to A&E and I got 16 stitches on hand and plastic surgery.
-3 times for 3 different seizures
4) Massive OD. Nearly died, crawled out of bed at 3AM and managed to alert someone and got rushed to A&E, was there for about 2 weeks. Had Aspiration Pneumonia and it led to Kidney, Liver damage and then Sepsis. Nearly died. I remember in ER they did something with my chest because of my breathing and it gave my chest the tightest pain ever thought my heart was going to explode.
5) Fired from job, I used to go in fukked up and get sent home
6) Crimeral sentences for robbing. Other shyt too that thankfully I haven't been sentenced for, could’ve done years if I did
7) Month before all this began I lost my bytch of 5 years, p*ssy must've been good
8) Lost a lot of friends due to messed up behavior.
9) Totaled car.
Lot more stuff but yeah you get the idea, 90% happened between April and October. Now I'm sitting here without any job and $7000 under and I'm getting $10 overdraft charge a day.
Last year I was on top of the world about to get myself out of the shythole that was my home life. Now I'm 21 and back at home with my crackhead parents
just trying to find a job so I can move out. 4 weeks sober now and I know this isn't my path I ain't no bytch made fukk boy
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I've already been accepted onto an Economics course at a good college come fall just gotta get away from these pipe loving fukkers.
One person I'd like to thank, Fewcha the gawd. Most happened before DS2 came out so went I first heard it I related to it like a mutherfukka and he got me out of darkplace, couple years down the line I might say DS2 saved my life
If my spellings bad fukk you, my brain is fuked
All you pill heads
Being stupid what do I do? Start Benzos1) Dropped out of college
2) Went from $6000 in cash to -$7000 due to expensive drug use and crazy Xanax decisions I.E Giving someone my Macbook whilst on pills.
3) Been to A&E about 8 times for the following.
-Fell over and cut my face, got 11 stitches
-Fell over onto back of head, got 10 staples on head
-Fell over onto hand and ripped thumb apart. Got picked up walking the street with my thumb in pieces by the cops who took me to A&E and I got 16 stitches on hand and plastic surgery.
-3 times for 3 different seizures
4) Massive OD. Nearly died, crawled out of bed at 3AM and managed to alert someone and got rushed to A&E, was there for about 2 weeks. Had Aspiration Pneumonia and it led to Kidney, Liver damage and then Sepsis. Nearly died. I remember in ER they did something with my chest because of my breathing and it gave my chest the tightest pain ever thought my heart was going to explode.
5) Fired from job, I used to go in fukked up and get sent home
6) Crimeral sentences for robbing. Other shyt too that thankfully I haven't been sentenced for, could’ve done years if I did
7) Month before all this began I lost my bytch of 5 years, p*ssy must've been good
8) Lost a lot of friends due to messed up behavior.
9) Totaled car.
Lot more stuff but yeah you get the idea, 90% happened between April and October. Now I'm sitting here without any job and $7000 under and I'm getting $10 overdraft charge a day.
Last year I was on top of the world about to get myself out of the shythole that was my home life. Now I'm 21 and back at home with my crackhead parents
just trying to find a job so I can move out. 4 weeks sober now and I know this isn't my path I ain't no bytch made fukk boy.I've already been accepted onto an Economics course at a good college come fall just gotta get away from these pipe loving fukkers.
One person I'd like to thank, Fewcha the gawd. Most happened before DS2 came out so went I first heard it I related to it like a mutherfukka and he got me out of darkplace, couple years down the line I might say DS2 saved my life
If my spellings bad fukk you, my brain is fukedAll you pill heads
I ain't ready to share this shame yet irl naw fuk that.
Got like 15 bros and sis but a'int know dem family on both sides too broken. Friends? I fukked all them relationships up on my crusade. Professional I might get some housing I'm lookin into it breh. I just wanna brake this cycle and prove we better than this
