I would like to preface the discussion below by making it clear that I understand that under a system of RWS, all Black individuals are equally subject to the same societal challenges and hurdles, and I generally don't believe there is a group of Black individuals that has it 'worse' than the rest. I am simply sharing my perspective.
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There's a discussion to be had about how differently the world perceives big, Black individuals.
We tend to strike a different, dangerous kind of fear in the hearts of others even as we simply move through space. Black physicality is seemingly only appreciated and adored when it is placed in the context a of a sport or competition, but it is suddenly fearsome and threatening when removed from it.
I remember reading a
@DrX thread last month titled '
Nothing is sadder than big/tall black men with laid back overly passive personalities', and being one of the few people who agreed with the points that were raised.
yall are suppose to protect the community but instead thanks to white supremacy yall walk around all timid and afraid like big fakkits. Walking with your head all down and hands in your pockets like "white people dont worry im harmless"
I worked at this ratchet ass call center for like a week and i swear it was like 80% smoked out nikkas and white trash,[...] but this one big nikka as was the janitor. [...] The crackers in charge of course always patronized him. "Good job""You do great work" Great work? mothafukka put a twist tie on a fukking garbage bag. But cacs get off on that passive aggressive subliminal shyt.
I digress but my point is. Big black men were meant to be warriors. Alot of our warriors have their balls taken away via racism and white supremacy. A 6'4 nikka that look like jon jones shouldn't be wearing a dress. I seen a big nikka roller bladeing on hertel ave last year with his hands behind his back while wearing shorts above his knees. I'm thinking "look at this fakkit, hes suppose to he guarding the community, instead hes probably getting his ass blown out just to live over here" Alotta black men are embracing gay sex for money.
I digress again, but our biggest and strongest men have been turned into bytches and have no place in this society. If u cant dunk you're going to have to get a reg job. Do u know how stupid you're going to look being a 6'4 black man working at target as a cashier of the deli. I urge bigger black men to start business unless u want to either be a cuckold buck or get a shytty retail job or some other low wage bullshyt.
Regardless of how crazy he sounded while making it, he still made a great point. And the
@DrX post struck a deeper chord with me, as I had considered it within the historical context of the racist practice of buck-breaking.
[...] male slaves were purchase based entirely on the prerequisite of them possessing a large penis. Black men were routinely raped by their gay slave owners. The process was known as “breaking the buck.”buck breaking sex farms
It involves a strapping Negro slave, who was defiant, was beaten with a whip till bloody in front of his entire slave congregation. The slave owner would cut down a tree and, with the help of the overseer, would then pummel the deviant “buck” into submission. Once the slave was worn down, the master had the other Negro slaves force him over the tree stump where his britches would be removed and he laid fully exposed buttocks, he would remove his own clothing and proceeded to savagely sodomize the buck in front his wife, family, friends, and children.
“Homosexuality” & Slavery: The History of Black Homosexuality in America
In order for his plan to take effect, he would require the buck’s male child to watch, front row center, so he too can witness his father’s sexual demise and humiliation. Buck Breaking was the slave master’s very effective tool to keep all young black slaves from ever being defiant and taking revenge. It also frightened the mother’s and wives from ever giving consent to an uprising. Buck Breaking was so successful that it was made into a “Sex Farm” where slave master could travel from plantation to plantation feeding their sadistic, homosexual needs.
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In this society, it is rarely the case that Big, Black individuals are given positions of visibility.. because of course they attract enough of that already. I oftentimes wonder where all the Big, Black individuals who are not athletic or ''well-spoken'' go? What options are really there for them in an unjust society?
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When I used to watch SNL, I was always happy to see Leslie Jones - the 6ft tall, beautiful Black comedienne. I also knew that her job could not be easy in the least. How does she balance both her physicality and her humor while managing to not do so at the cost of her Blackness or femininity? How does she navigate her workplace interactions in a place known for its not-so-diverse hiring track record?
However she did it, she did it wonderfully. But none of that mattered when racist, sexist trolls online attacked her before the launch of the then-new all-female Ghostbusters reboot. Like I wrote above, Big, Black individuals attract a lot of attention on their own. The majority the insults hurled at her focused on her height and beautiful, dark complexion. It got so difficult that she had to leave Twitter for some time. Twitter's CEO, Jack Dorsey, eventually reached out to her.
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And back to the point I made earlier about how Big, Black individuals attract attention; many times that attention will inspire a response from members of the RWS. The reality of Black physicality is a very real threat to them, and they live with that fear daily. This truism was beautifully covered in the movie 'I Am Not Your Negro' - the same movie, mind you, that was so negatively down-voted by trolls that IMDB.com had to
permanently close their message boards.
The root of the white man's hatred is terror.
A bottomless and nameless terror,
which focuses on this dread figure,
an entity which lives only in his mind.
That dread figure alters their entire sense of reality and affects all their interactions with any Big, Black people. Where you or I might simply see a Big, Black person, they instead see a nefarious, otherworldly-being focused on their demise.
And we're reminded regularly of the reality of the fear they are burdened with. No amount of therapy or community outreach or police training or public shaming or safe speaking or safe dressing or protesting or begging or pleading will shake that terror loose from them. It is a burden implicit in and complicit with all forms of whiteness, and it is theirs to bear eternally.
When race soldiers ruthlessly murdered young Big, Black individuals Trayvon Martin (6'0'', 160lbs, 17yrs), Michael Brown (6'5'', 210lbs, 18yrs), and Tamir Rice (5'7'', 195lbs, 12yrs), they all uttered the same ugly, indefensible words, "I feared for my life".
Or who can forget when uniformed thugs assaulted Rodney King (6'3", unknown, 26yrs) on camera, or when 24yr-old FAMU football star Johnathan Ferrell was shot as he went door-to-door seeking help after being involved in a car accident?
Not a single one of the officers involved these cases were convicted.
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As this thread reaches its end, I realise that although it is finished in one sense, it still has not reached its conclusion.
The road ahead of us is long and winding. All of us, as Black individuals, have our roles to play in restoring a system of equality and justice. Peace be with us all.
because I was bigger than everybody, on some I'm Tyrone and I'm here to fuk yo wife type sht
nothing like it.
finessing the enemy to get what I want out of them
You nikkas must look unkempt. I'm 6'4 240 and don't have any of these problems.
