Best friend got killed a week before he was going off to Tenn. State, saw another homeboy get shot right in front of me (he lived tho), got tired of seeing my folks cry (wasn't raised like that at all, parents had sense), got tired of spending money on courts costs, class fees, drug tests, lawyers, etc, and finally just gained a new outlook on life. I actually care about things and want to live a decent and hopefully long life.
Won't glamorize it at all for the young brehs. It really aint shyt out there for you, at worst you'll be dead or in jail, at best you'll be like me, early 30's and just now getting your shyt together with a social network full of females because all your bros is dead, locked up, or washed up. I purposefully had to cut myself off from folks because the direction I'm going in now, my day 1's just aint on the page. I've been back home in my city almost 3 years and a lot of brehs don't even know I'm back yet.
Your network is your net worth, my moms specially told me to get a new circle, in my teens and 20's I had dreams of being 40+ with all my bros sitting back counting this money, now I'm out here solo still making it happen, but I wont lie, it's lonely sometimes.