You know the most fukked up part? Withdrawal gets worse each time you quit and start again. My dumb ass was thinking that drying out for a few months around New Years each year was a good thing. Turns out that those first few 'cold turkey's are now making it excruciating for me this time.
I have gone cold turkey like three times before it started making me feel fukked up. I quit cold turkey a year ago and that was the first time I really felt the pain. This time I can't bring myself to go cold turkey cause I just can't go through that again. I am now trying to wean off and while it's sort of 'better' than last time, it's dragging out because the weaning process is just longer than quitting flat out.
Funy thing is I was just trying to cut back in general, not really thinking of quitting per se. To keep it a buck: I went to work hung over and someone snitched on me. My manager didn't see me personally that day so she just let me know that that was a very serious accusation. So instead of partying until 4am and still dragging my ass to work I decided to limit myself to no more than one 40 of Bud on a school (read: work) night.
Simutaneously I also tried to keep it to a low roar on the weekends.
About a month in to my gentler drinking my bell got rung one morning. Out the blue the fuzzy headedness and blurry vision just hit me. Felt faint and everything. Then it was every morning. All day at work I was dry-drunk as hell. Hated that shyt.
So now I'm at the point where I know good and got damn well I can't turn back up. From here I HAVE to keep turning down. G-d willing, today was pretty good. I have been very strict about my portions even on the weekend for the past week and I feel like I'm over the hump.
I have Googled so much info and experimented on myself so much that I think I can offer advice to any Coli Fam that are struggling with this.
Apparently alcohol withdrawal is very dangerous and can even kill. I wasn't no fifth of vodka a day type, just an average low life with a taste for the booze. Prone to overdo it a couple times a week. Telling you now: get off that train while it's still early. You do NOT want to get hooked.
I have gone cold turkey like three times before it started making me feel fukked up. I quit cold turkey a year ago and that was the first time I really felt the pain. This time I can't bring myself to go cold turkey cause I just can't go through that again. I am now trying to wean off and while it's sort of 'better' than last time, it's dragging out because the weaning process is just longer than quitting flat out.
Funy thing is I was just trying to cut back in general, not really thinking of quitting per se. To keep it a buck: I went to work hung over and someone snitched on me. My manager didn't see me personally that day so she just let me know that that was a very serious accusation. So instead of partying until 4am and still dragging my ass to work I decided to limit myself to no more than one 40 of Bud on a school (read: work) night.
Simutaneously I also tried to keep it to a low roar on the weekends.
About a month in to my gentler drinking my bell got rung one morning. Out the blue the fuzzy headedness and blurry vision just hit me. Felt faint and everything. Then it was every morning. All day at work I was dry-drunk as hell. Hated that shyt.
So now I'm at the point where I know good and got damn well I can't turn back up. From here I HAVE to keep turning down. G-d willing, today was pretty good. I have been very strict about my portions even on the weekend for the past week and I feel like I'm over the hump.
I have Googled so much info and experimented on myself so much that I think I can offer advice to any Coli Fam that are struggling with this.
Apparently alcohol withdrawal is very dangerous and can even kill. I wasn't no fifth of vodka a day type, just an average low life with a taste for the booze. Prone to overdo it a couple times a week. Telling you now: get off that train while it's still early. You do NOT want to get hooked.
breh. What was your weekly stats lookin like. My moms dad dealt with alcoholism and my pops prolly drank more than he should have and I'm scared to go on that path.
going on 5 years sober coming October.
Other 5, be on TEMPLE-MODE 
fukk are yall non-balanced ******s on? 
