If if if motherfcker just admit that you're a btich and that's that. You're the type to get your siht took and make scenarious like: mayne if they werent 2 if I had my gat if it wasnt night...
Woulda shoulda coulda.
You speak like a kid, full of ego and no forethought or rationality.
Its cool, you're a kid and you don't know any beter, when you get older you'll see.
There is nothing admirable about needlessly throwing your life away for pride.
Like the french response to the charge of the light brigade, "It is magnificent, but it isn't war." "It is madness"