But im currently in my *first* longer relationship deal...and man...this shyt is hardddd to not think about other women. It even sometimes pops up in my head when I'm fukkin'...I even been DREAMIN about fukking other bishes. Something has got to be wrong.
because my friend that stays in relationships always acted like relationships were goated, and that fukking different girls gets tiresome (he hasn't fukked as many as me, none as fine as I have, and his chick isn't attractive.) But I feel lied to lmao Like I really like my girl, and don't want it to end. But it also feels...like I'm trapped sometimes.
Now we’re talking
TLDR: it’s not easy being committed when you got options. The grass always looks greener on the other side.
Sometimes I close my eyes and think of other women when I need a spark if she was annoying before we got in bed. Then afterwards the guilt pops up why do I still think like this? I’m supposed to be settling down and be mature and intentional
I always looked down on cheaters but always had short situationships
Now that I’m in a more official relationship, it feels like I’m stuck in it. Since she met the fam and her fam knows me and her friends met me, it’s like I can’t break up. She moved her extra stuff in my place already. I’m thinking how did we get here so fast? It’s only been a few months and if I don’t do something, time will fly by and people will ask when are y’all gonna tie the knot already?
like others said I try to remind myself of what dating is like nowadays. The interview questions. The expectations of having to Wine and dine with no certainty. The texts that sometimes go nowhere. The mental state of the prettiest women. The need to go out and do something all the time. The amount of money that just evaporates because we gotta try new things.
Then there’s the judging and societal pressure. The fam thinks you’re just a playboy who’s picky. The way people look when u say you’re single especially christians. Your friends joke about being the eternal bachelor or going overseas to get yours
I want to be settled down. I want to be committed. It’s obviously so much easier to focus on one woman and pour yourself into her. But every time I wonder if this is the one because my mind wanders a lot and evolving is what got me to where I’m at today
Someone told men a lie one day and we all fell for it
Damn this turned into a therapy session lol