Ok...if you been following my posts...you know I grew up in a predominantly white neighborhood and went to predominantly white schools until graduation and moved to NYC.
Used to have a circle of friends where I was the token black guy around mostly white guys. And honestly since the past 8 years....I just can't fukk with them anymore on any sort of level. All of my new friends I've made in NYC (mostly black and spanish) I connect to alot more and can talk about things I couldn't talk with them. As cruel as it sounds...I have been making a concentrated effort to erase my past & focus on my present and that includes people I once knew. I can't relate to them or their lives. We have nothing in common anymore. Just based off my current circle of friends they don't fit in anywhere in the equation.
The main reason I can't fukk with them anymore is because of how different our lives went once we all went to college and graduated. They all got good jobs in corporate shortly after school and have houses, cars, wives, families...I visited them in the past and we went to spots where it was mostly and I just felt uncomfortable in Scottsdale/PHX and Baltimore. Meanwhile I struggled to finish college at a shytty PWI...felt alienated...had to work 5 times as hard for half the results, finally graduated...then moved...only to deal with unemployment, job discrimination, housing discrimination, underemployment, homelessness, and finally some success. But it was the fact we started at the same point and they were able to get ahead more while I struggled that just got to me.
And honestly back then they would be on some lowkey
that I didn't pick up on until I was older and more educated & "woke" so to speak....this one dude I used to hang out with made a joke when we were at a concert about announcing the George Zimmerman/Trayvon Martin verdict at the show...and would make these Trayvon jokes.... 
shortly after that verdict i deleted my facebook...pretty telling them cats "I'm gone don't find me"
well the other day two of them texted me....I went off on one of them...especiallly after reading on all of these police shootings on tape on twitter and here...I told him to fukk off and that he was a racist and i basically don't associate with his kind.
The other texted me two days ago and since I didn't respond immediately it would be weird to now and i don't know what to say. I might just delete them.
So am I in the wrong here? Or...
Used to have a circle of friends where I was the token black guy around mostly white guys. And honestly since the past 8 years....I just can't fukk with them anymore on any sort of level. All of my new friends I've made in NYC (mostly black and spanish) I connect to alot more and can talk about things I couldn't talk with them. As cruel as it sounds...I have been making a concentrated effort to erase my past & focus on my present and that includes people I once knew. I can't relate to them or their lives. We have nothing in common anymore. Just based off my current circle of friends they don't fit in anywhere in the equation.
The main reason I can't fukk with them anymore is because of how different our lives went once we all went to college and graduated. They all got good jobs in corporate shortly after school and have houses, cars, wives, families...I visited them in the past and we went to spots where it was mostly and I just felt uncomfortable in Scottsdale/PHX and Baltimore. Meanwhile I struggled to finish college at a shytty PWI...felt alienated...had to work 5 times as hard for half the results, finally graduated...then moved...only to deal with unemployment, job discrimination, housing discrimination, underemployment, homelessness, and finally some success. But it was the fact we started at the same point and they were able to get ahead more while I struggled that just got to me.
And honestly back then they would be on some lowkey
that I didn't pick up on until I was older and more educated & "woke" so to speak....this one dude I used to hang out with made a joke when we were at a concert about announcing the George Zimmerman/Trayvon Martin verdict at the show...and would make these Trayvon jokes.... shortly after that verdict i deleted my facebook...pretty telling them cats "I'm gone don't find me"
well the other day two of them texted me....I went off on one of them...especiallly after reading on all of these police shootings on tape on twitter and here...I told him to fukk off and that he was a racist and i basically don't associate with his kind.
The other texted me two days ago and since I didn't respond immediately it would be weird to now and i don't know what to say. I might just delete them.
So am I in the wrong here? Or...
leave and never call again.
it is what it is.