Anxiety Is Making Me Wanna Cry

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OP, I used to deal with anxiety and depression. If you need some help, let me know. I know how crippling it could be.
 

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I have similar issues

I get the worst anxiety/feeling in the pit of my stomach before going to work. It involves a lot of human interaction. I'm not good at my job. I'm always messing up. My manager knows I'm a weak link. My coworkers dislike me. I'm the only black male there which makes my anxiety even worse as I feel like I'm representing my entire race and I'm always over thinking how I interact with people as well as over analyzing how people act around me.

With a new year starting, I'm probably going to get into meditation. Dont know if it will help but it cant hurt either.
 

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I hate anxiety. Mines wierd though. I'll always up at like 3-5 AM and I can feel it right away. The rest of the night is me praying I can call asleep but every time I get close something pops in my head and I don't sleep

shyt sucks
This :mjcry:. And I hate going places with tons of people :sadcam:
 

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I have similar issues

I get the worst anxiety/feeling in the pit of my stomach before going to work. It involves a lot of human interaction. I'm not good at my job. I'm always messing up. My manager knows I'm a weak link. My coworkers dislike me. I'm the only black male there which makes my anxiety even worse as I feel like I'm representing my entire race and I'm always over thinking how I interact with people as well as over analyzing how people act around me.

With a new year starting, I'm probably going to get into meditation. Dont know if it will help but it cant hurt either.

This is exactly my problem. I get along with most of my co-workers but some seem to dislike me, and I find myself wondering if it's because of my demeanor.

I'm also the only black person in my department, so some people might assume that I'm mad just because I'm not always smiling and entertaining them.

Good luck with your job tho. I hope you can find a way to handle it without resorting to medication. I've accepted that I'll never be a people person, and I eventually plan to get a job that doesn't involve interacting with customers, preferably in the tech industry:ehh:. But in the meantime I'm gonna try to become as personable as I can be.
 

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Try to improve everyday, little by little.

You'll have setbacks some days and you may feel like just saying fukk it, but don't quit.

Use every interaction to try something different without doing to much. Just find what works for you, and sooner than later you'll find a groove.
 

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Try MDMA / Molly it has a lot of medicinal effects . They've done wellness experiments in the past when it was legal. Now since it's making a come back they use it not only to party but for therapy.
 
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I haven't read any posts yet but there are two things that I would recommend you do.

1. Go to counseling. Your insurance should cover it. That will help you get to the root of the problem. It could be stress, a lot of times it is stress and it could be related to your job. However, you said that you don't do well around people and maybe you don't do well outside of the house (a comfort zone for most) so at that point you're looking at a generalized social anxiety with panic attacks or agoraphobia. It's all very similar but the counselor will ask the questions to help you figure it out.

2. You might need medication as well. Even if it's just there on an as needed basis for panic it'll help you to know it's there if you need it and it's relaxing to have it on hand.. it eases the mind knowing it is there.
 

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Try MDMA / Molly it has a lot of medicinal effects . They've done wellness experiments in the past when it was legal. Now since it's making a come back they use it not only to party but for therapy.

THIS. I actually was able to pull myself out of depression in two months by dropping LSD and MDMA on the weekends for about 2 months.
I've been reading up on how they use on PTSD vets and the benefits so I tried it out and here I am a year later...feeling fantastic :blessed:

Make sure you don't get M cut with meth. I have a legit guy that I trust his stuff.
 

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Depression and anxiety was kicking my ass but I'm just about back to normal after getting on this Effexor

Are you still taking it? :lupe:
My friend is dependent on that, if she misses a dose, she goes :demonic:
poor thing will be drugged up for the rest of her life to have a semi-normal life :wow:
 

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A few years ago I would meditate occasionally. For no particular reason I stopped tho.

I'm definitely gonna get back to that now. Not sure about the yoga thing, but I'm open to it. What is your experience with yoga? Did it help you to relieve yourself of stress/anxiety?

My wife and a couple of my male friends are addicted to yoga. The guys that I'm friends with are alpha ass womanizers too, fwiw. The general consensus from what I've heard is that a chain called Core Power Yoga is the best place to practice at. They even have their own app for ios and Android that can find locations and display class schedules. It's a nationwide chain.
 

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I had horrible anxiety until I learned about just taking time out of your day to just be alone in silence and turn your mind off

It sounds corny but it worked for me..I learned of some breathing excersises too but I haven't done neither for a minute because I haven't had any anxiety for a while now
 

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Are you still taking it? :lupe:
My friend is dependent on that, if she misses a dose, she goes :demonic:
poor thing will be drugged up for the rest of her life to have a semi-normal life :wow:
Yeah it's one of the stronger ones and hard to get off...it's for if u have severe depression and the other drugs aren't effective.

I've ran out of medicine a couple times and this shyt hit me after like 3 days started getting random trembles and brain zaps where I would feel weird...for lack if a better word

I'd rather that than the alternative of feeling like shyt all the time tho
 

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I've dealt with a mild form of general anxiety disorder since my adolescence. I also suffer from OCD and panic attacks, both of which I'm able to manage fairly well.

However, since starting my new job, my anxiety has increased. I'm not a people person, so dealing with customers can be a bit nerve wracking at times. For the most part I do a decent job with customers but sometimes I might come across as rude, when that's not my intention. At other times, I have to restrain myself from swinging at rude customers.

For the past few weeks, I've had frequent urges to cry:mjcry:. I can't seem to allow myself to cry though, because I don't actually feel sad about anything. I just get these split-second urges to, which I've recently learned is a common symptom of anxiety. I guess the takeaway from all this is: it's okay to cry if you need to, but I don't feel I need to cry. I need to get to the root cause of the anxiety, and I'm not quiet sure what that is. All I know is that I'm gonna stick it out for the next 9 months, after which I'm quitting this shytty ass job. In the meantime I hope that this experience helps me grow, so that I leave more in tune with my emotions, as well as those of others.

Come share your stories with a nikka:mjcry:. It's somewhat therapeutic, you know. It helps to express your feelings brehs:wow:.



I just recently discovered I have anxiety or "something similar to it," says my doctor. I moved outta state about 6 months ago, I didn't realize I was having a panic attack in the middle of work until I told someone I couldn't breath and paramedics came. After that incident, 2 weeks later it happened again, then a week after that then twice the week after that.
Since I was young I've always dealt with depression so it could more or less be due to it. I'd have these "black out" moments and be filled with such rage and trash everything around me then cry later on, not knowing what I'm upset about.
I have one of those crying moments too, it be completely random & for no apparent reason. I didn't know it was a symptom of the anxiety..
 
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