I didn't want it. Still somewhat pissed a decade later.
I knew it was time when she said she wasn't sure about being married.
Well I would say "I should have known" because I tried to hold on for a couple years after she first let me know she was iffy about the marriage.
The person has to be 110% invested in a marriage for it to be a marriage. Once you get to 99% it goes to 90% and on and on. Being unsure doesn't get better, you just become more and more unsure.
It's so weird how I can not get over her. I even turned her down more than once when she wanted to try again (for a third time - cause I'm not insane) but I still til this day get all bummed out and lovesick whenever she comes up.
Sucks