I do. I really do.
I'm at the point I'd rather be left the hell alone.
Too many people are just fukking weird and disappointing and uninteresting and just rude and self-centered and the fukk I want to be around that trash type of personality;.
Other than hanging out with my family, friends and the people I associate with, do business/art/music with I really don't want anybody else in my life at this point.
I enjoy being alone with my thoughts. I enjoy reminiscing about where I've been and thinking about where I'm trying to go. I enjoy doing things that I appreciate and workin g on myself. I just want to make money. I just want to travel. I want to make music. I want to party. I want to live my life.
Also, I've been through many of the toughest moments of my life...alone with no one to help me so that legit made me cold, bitter, and mean. Like I can be a hateful sonofabytch...this board knows it.
But you ain't struggled like me.
I was homeless for almost a year.
I had no girlfriend's place to crash at...no woman talking care of me...
It was sleeping in my car, turning the heat up when it was winter so I wouldn't freeze to death...then jail.
Then when I crashed my car I was in the streets sleeping on park benches and in laundromats
Then I worked my ass off to make enough money to get a place of my own.
No one helped me out.
I've had to move to three different apartments on my own. No one helped me out.
So because of that and a couple of other choice moments, I've been like "fukk people".
Unless you fukk with me or what I like...it's really fukk you.
I'm not changing the way I operate to please you.
I'm not changing shyt about myself I wouldn't change on my own.
I know who I am.
I knew who I was before you knew who I was.
I';m 33 years old and I defined myself through my own actions, life goals, thoughts, deeds, and accomplishments.
I didn't need somebody else to establish who I am as a human being.
I hate when people think that you can't be a complete person on your own.
Or that you have to be in a relationship to do that,.
fukk relationships.
Most people in my mind ain't shyt.
I've been through alot of experiences that made me realize most people ain't shyt.
Which is why I'm happy alone.
Everybody is going to try to change you.
They think you're cool on your own
They like you cause you edgy
Then they try to change you.
Which means you never liked me anyways.
Again, a big fukk you to all you goddamn conformists, naysayers, and everyone else that' snot comfortable in their skin that they have to [people please. You care too much about what other people think,. You care too much about being "accepted".
At this point I'm happy cause I['m just taking the piss....I don't' want to be accepted...I don't give a flying fukk what anybody thinks about me. I know I am a complete individual. I appreciate what makes me special. I understand my struggles. I understand my strengths, I understand my weaknesses...and I did this by being alone and getting to know me better than anyone else. Cause at the end of the you are occupying the same body and form 24/7/365...so if you don't like yourself...that's on you. And no amount of escapism...drugs, sex, alcohol, will help you get away from yourself. Some of you don't even know who you are...I do.
I'm at the point I'd rather be left the hell alone.
Too many people are just fukking weird and disappointing and uninteresting and just rude and self-centered and the fukk I want to be around that trash type of personality;.
Other than hanging out with my family, friends and the people I associate with, do business/art/music with I really don't want anybody else in my life at this point.
I enjoy being alone with my thoughts. I enjoy reminiscing about where I've been and thinking about where I'm trying to go. I enjoy doing things that I appreciate and workin g on myself. I just want to make money. I just want to travel. I want to make music. I want to party. I want to live my life.
Also, I've been through many of the toughest moments of my life...alone with no one to help me so that legit made me cold, bitter, and mean. Like I can be a hateful sonofabytch...this board knows it.
But you ain't struggled like me.
I was homeless for almost a year.
I had no girlfriend's place to crash at...no woman talking care of me...
It was sleeping in my car, turning the heat up when it was winter so I wouldn't freeze to death...then jail.
Then when I crashed my car I was in the streets sleeping on park benches and in laundromats
Then I worked my ass off to make enough money to get a place of my own.
No one helped me out.
I've had to move to three different apartments on my own. No one helped me out.
So because of that and a couple of other choice moments, I've been like "fukk people".
Unless you fukk with me or what I like...it's really fukk you.
I'm not changing the way I operate to please you.
I'm not changing shyt about myself I wouldn't change on my own.
I know who I am.
I knew who I was before you knew who I was.
I';m 33 years old and I defined myself through my own actions, life goals, thoughts, deeds, and accomplishments.
I didn't need somebody else to establish who I am as a human being.
I hate when people think that you can't be a complete person on your own.
Or that you have to be in a relationship to do that,.
fukk relationships.
Most people in my mind ain't shyt.
I've been through alot of experiences that made me realize most people ain't shyt.
Which is why I'm happy alone.
Everybody is going to try to change you.
They think you're cool on your own
They like you cause you edgy
Then they try to change you.
Which means you never liked me anyways.
Again, a big fukk you to all you goddamn conformists, naysayers, and everyone else that' snot comfortable in their skin that they have to [people please. You care too much about what other people think,. You care too much about being "accepted".
At this point I'm happy cause I['m just taking the piss....I don't' want to be accepted...I don't give a flying fukk what anybody thinks about me. I know I am a complete individual. I appreciate what makes me special. I understand my struggles. I understand my strengths, I understand my weaknesses...and I did this by being alone and getting to know me better than anyone else. Cause at the end of the you are occupying the same body and form 24/7/365...so if you don't like yourself...that's on you. And no amount of escapism...drugs, sex, alcohol, will help you get away from yourself. Some of you don't even know who you are...I do.
