Anybody Else Feel Dead Inside?

[Hathaway]

So you prefer feeling suicidal?

I'm not suicidal either.

 

[semicko82]

More like going through the motions. The passion I felt for my career has been destroyed. I feel bad because the quality of my care is going down, but at this point, I can't even feign interest in what I'm doing. My Dad/older black men in general tell me that this is normal and they all experienced it to at some point, but I still can't get used to it.

What do you do

 

[Hathaway]

How would your ideal life look?

A different job? Single with no kids? Living somewhere different?

I hate to say. I love family. But I made a lot mistakes in my 20s. Premature/pressured into marriage. Unplanned pregnancies. These 2 things crippled my dreams.

 

[The BasedFather]

I hate to say. I love family. But I made a lot mistakes in my 20s. Premature/pressured into marriage. Unplanned pregnancies. These 2 things crippled my dreams.

I feel the same these days. Feel like I’m just going through the motions. Like a hamster on a wheel. Wake up and each day is the same. Think if I was single and childless as well I could have that “free” feeling I miss. Also doesn’t help living somewhere that’s cold and always cloudy

 

[Silkk]

I'm not suicidal either.

You literally said so…

 

[JasoRockStar]

What do you do

Physical Therapist. 3 years licensed and been burned out for almost 2 years.

 

[semicko82]

Physical Therapist. 3 years licensed and been burned out for almost 2 years.

Sounds like it's time for a career switch

 

[King]

You’re starting to take the whole Donny Hathway persona a little too seriously @Hathaway

 

[Carl Tethers]

I hate to say. I love family. But I made a lot mistakes in my 20s. Premature/pressured into marriage. Unplanned pregnancies. These 2 things crippled my dreams.

You got kids - I'd say to enjoy their dreams for now, my guy

 

[Hathaway]

You literally said so…

That was last year in April. I no longer venture into such dark depths mentally.

 

[Hathaway]

You’re starting to take the whole Donny Hathway persona a little too seriously @Hathaway

What you mean? Suicide? I'm not suicidal. I had one moment of weakness last year. Im not like that.

 

[Hathaway]

You got kids - I'd say to enjoy their dreams for now, my guy

But what about me

 

[JasoRockStar]

Sounds like it's time for a career switch

Yeah, I've been taking this course called Thr Non-Clinical PT. It's designed to help PTs figure what they want to do before transitioning out of clinical work. It's better to know now before it's too late.

 

[semicko82]

I'm at that point where everything is draining. My job. My home life. Even my kids. It's all draining and mentally exhausting. I just feel like I am purposed for so much more than what I'm doing but past decisions and mistakes have seemingly sealed my fate that this is all there is for my life.

I fight against that current though. I know there is something more for me out there and that thought, though hopeless gives me a small amount of light that I may succeed.

It's hard getting up everyday and going through the same routine. Only looking forward to the weekends or looking forward to clocking out every day and going home to do something self satisfying for 2 hours until its time to go pick up my kids. This is no way to live.

When I feel down and out I always remember that there is someone out there doing way worse than me.

 

[pickles]

This sounds like a white.

Writing fukken dissertations and shyt.