Straw Hat Luffy
Veteran
Yes but I'm in a perplexing situation
I've always been anxious and terrified about everything. I was especially worried about my future, seeing as I was still a high school student less than 2 years ago and received bad grades constantly because I had untreated ADD. Ironically, I'm a pretty intelligent guy and did amazing on my standardized tests and got accepted to 4 different universities, but because I had shytty grades (They had me, my mom and my 2 older sisters waiting in the main office for an hour the morning of the graduation to get the OK to walk across the stage) I ain't get no financial aid/scholarship money and had to go to community college.
Finally, like 2 months ago, I was finally able to sit down and pay attention for a moment to see a psychiatrist about getting medication, I got diagnosed with both ADD & GAD, and my doctor gave me prescriptions for Adderall & Celexa.
The Adderall has been heavenly. I've actually been doing great in class since I got it. I'm angry I wasn't able to get it earlier, that way I could've done good in high school (I told my mom I thought I had ADD when I was 15 and she laughed at me and told me I was lying.) The Celexa, however, made me feel good for a couple days, then I started getting suicidal thoughtsI stopped taking that ish immediately. HOWEVER, I noticed that a LOT of my anguish was from not doing good in school and worrying about my future, but with the Addy scripts, I'm doing the best I've done in school since 2nd grade, and my anxiety has dropped a little bit, but I still have days with crippling depression and worry. People recommended that I try weed, weed made my anxiety worse, had me standing on the island median on 441 during rush hour traffic seriously thinking about jumping in front of a Dodge Ram
I'm so afraid
I'm in college right now. The major aspect that's holding me down is my family is helping support me so that pressure weighs down on me heavy.
I don't wanna waste their money and not achieve anything big
) I ain't get no financial aid/scholarship money and had to go to community college.
I stopped taking that ish immediately. HOWEVER, I noticed that a LOT of my anguish was from not doing good in school and worrying about my future, but with the Addy scripts, I'm doing the best I've done in school since 2nd grade, and my anxiety has dropped a little bit, but I still have days with crippling depression and worry. People recommended that I try weed, weed made my anxiety worse, had me standing on the island median on 441 during rush hour traffic seriously thinking about jumping in front of a Dodge Ram
I'm so afraid
I never saw this being such a long term issue. If you’d told me 10 years ago that I’d still have this issue at this point in my life, I probably would have killed myself on the spot. I’ve gained perspective since then but there’s still that nagging feeling that I’ve missed out on so many opportunities because of this shyt. And as I approach my late 20s I feel as if it’s robbing me of my youth