I don't hate her but I'm not sure I love her as whenever anything happens to her my emotions are a resounding meh

It may be hard to believe but I've literally seen her arrested, screaming, and crying in front of me and just went swimming with some friends no less then two hours later without giving a fukk.
My older sister is attached to her, now my great grandma who took care of me on the other hand I love even though we've had our differences.
Don't know my dad but I had a chance to when I was about sixteen but I didn't care before I got put on the phone with him and after I got done talking to him I still had no interest and after a while he stopped contacting me
