Straw Hat Luffy
Veteran
Every year my alcohol consumption just get bigger. The amount of times I drink has increased dramatically too. I probably get shyt faced about three or four times a week. And I can't honestly remember the last time I went an entire month without a sip of beer or with alcohol content in it. I'm a just assume it was before I turned 21.
The only reason why I drink in the first place is because weed some reason always speeds up my heart so I haven't smoked since high school so I switched to drinking. Something that went from an occasional thing became a must and I fukking drink all the time when I don't wanna. Yesterday on my 7th beer I asked why am I getting shyt faced when I didn't want to in the first place?
Drinking has taken over and destroyed my life. I went from working out and being in shape, good looking guy who did a lot of shyt to just sitting in my dark room daily playing video games gaining about 40 pounds and health issues. I spend a lot of fukking money on it. And I always feel like shyt after a night of being fukked up, so I don't know why I continue this shyt.
I don't know why I can't be like a normal person and just drink on spefic occasions or just the weekends or even have a beer or two and be done with the night. But I realize I can't be that person so I'm a completely stop for good. I know 2016 tomorrow and new years resolutions like this are considered corny but I don't care im a take a step into the right direction. I'd rather have corny goals than be dead because I actually enjoy and appreciate life, its just alcohol consumes me.
If anyone else here is thinking the same thing I wish you luck and let's fight this shyt. I miss the old me, don't recognize who I am in the mirror and I don't remember the last time I didn't feel anxiety but I can break this shyt.
Wish me luck coli brothers.
The only reason why I drink in the first place is because weed some reason always speeds up my heart so I haven't smoked since high school so I switched to drinking. Something that went from an occasional thing became a must and I fukking drink all the time when I don't wanna. Yesterday on my 7th beer I asked why am I getting shyt faced when I didn't want to in the first place?
Drinking has taken over and destroyed my life. I went from working out and being in shape, good looking guy who did a lot of shyt to just sitting in my dark room daily playing video games gaining about 40 pounds and health issues. I spend a lot of fukking money on it. And I always feel like shyt after a night of being fukked up, so I don't know why I continue this shyt.
I don't know why I can't be like a normal person and just drink on spefic occasions or just the weekends or even have a beer or two and be done with the night. But I realize I can't be that person so I'm a completely stop for good. I know 2016 tomorrow and new years resolutions like this are considered corny but I don't care im a take a step into the right direction. I'd rather have corny goals than be dead because I actually enjoy and appreciate life, its just alcohol consumes me.
If anyone else here is thinking the same thing I wish you luck and let's fight this shyt. I miss the old me, don't recognize who I am in the mirror and I don't remember the last time I didn't feel anxiety but I can break this shyt.
Wish me luck coli brothers.
no i'm not stopping 
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