long read
as a non-smoker i decided to try some brownies
the first 1 did nothin
so i ate another 1 15 mins later
and 2 more 15 mins after that
that shyt hit me outta nowhere
i had 2 lay down in fetal position
i closed my eyes and was literally in space
i thought i died and went to the after life
i asked someone to take me to the hospital but that aint want to
i got up, went to the bathroom, threw up, washed my face and asked my girl the time
it was 10:28
i went back to bed and laid down in fetal position
i closed my eyes and was literally in space again
i stood there for what seemed like an hour
i got up, went to the bathroom, threw up, washed my face and asked my girl the time
it was 10:28
this shyt happened like 12 times
i was stuck in time
like i was caught in a loop
i felt like the only way out was shooting myself
im glad i didnt
then i thought of the movie source code
so everytime i got up to go to the bathroom i tried doing something a lil bit different
after what seemed like 12 hours it was finally 10:29
this shyt continued until like midnight when i finally fell asleep
i woke up at 10 still feelin a lil fukked up
but aware of what was going on
i had sever anxiety for the next 2 weeks and couldnt even go to work
i couldnt sleep
literally
id be dead tired up for 24 hours, fall asleep and wake up 30 secs later
then be up for 24 hours and the process continued for like 10 days
shyt had me mad depressed, lost and confused
i didnt feel like me
kinda light headed or seein stuff from another dimension
like i was just goin thru the motions
after that it would come and go randomly but wouldnt last more than a day
and i felt better knowing it would go away
but also depressed knowing it would come back
thankfully it hasnt come back in like a year
i still feel the effects of it
and at times when im really tired i feel mentally weak
i dont believe anything exists
i think its called something like derealization
i lose touch with reality
i havent tried anythin weed related again
sometimes i want to to kinda over come that
but i dont wanna deal with that shyt again
i dont really like talkin about the shyt cuz it brings back memories and its a lil personal
and my people still laugh at me about it, fukk them
with that said i understand the benefits of it and support it 100%